Reply to comment by subrosa in I’m really depressed by gr3np4chAM

subrosa wrote

When family members took care of one thing I had on my list it was probably the first time in months that I actually considered not giving up on everything else. It felt good.

I would definitely subscribe to your newsletter.

:) <3


subrosa wrote

I spent something like 2 years being depressed and suicidal, and now a year later I'm still digesting and processing that period. I spent most my time either distracting myself from reality (dull cycle of drugs, alcohol, sleep, movies) or thinking and overanalyzing (in an attempt to find meaning in anything, find a reason to live, etc.). When it got really bad I kinda lost touch with everything. My sense of self dissolved, and nothing made sense anymore. I gave up on my search for meaning. For a while I wasn't even able to answer simple questions people asked me, often I just started laughing uncontrollably, and I really didn't feel like laughing.

Now, looking back, I'm not entirely sure who that person was, but I think I understand him better than the people around me at the time. There's a good chance that we're nothing alike, but here's some 'advice' I would give to 2-years-ago-me. Maybe it's useful, maybe not:

  • Don't try to argue yourself out of depression. The time you spend reading and analyzing (in an attempt to find meaning) may help you better understand some philosophical concepts, but please don't get lost in the details. You don't have to make sound arguments to 'justify' how you feel, and you don't need to know exactly what you want in life. You don't need a perfect understanding of what's wrong, you don't need good answers to the big questions, save that shit up for later. It's enough to know that something is wrong.

  • Try to spend less time in your head. Try to keep in touch with the immediate, material world around you. (When people suggest meditation, they're suggesting a very similar thing. Live "in the now", whenever you can afford it. You are not your thoughts.)

  • Allow yourself to fail, focus on change. There's probably a long list of things you'd need to do to 'fix' your life, and you barely have the energy to give a single shit when you look at that list. Most of the items on the list are burdens of the past, and for some of them it may be time to get them out of your life. Instead of trying to get back on track with your old life, try to free yourself from constraints and responsibilities that no longer serve you. Fail at fixing your old life that got you into this mess, and instead focus on exploring your new life.

  • Reject the language that is used against you. Your 'laziness' is a symptom, not a character trait. You are experiencing laziness, and there's probably a good reason for that. You probably don't wanna feel lazy, it's not fun, so don't take the blame. You wouldn't take the blame for having a migrane.

  • Get help, if you can. Not the "talk to someone" type of help. Ask people to help you get things done, with them doing at least half the work. That's what you need.


Reply to comment by subrosa in Friday Free Talk by lastfutures

subrosa wrote

Most theory I read doesn't make sense until I 'let it sit' for a couple months. I think I unconsciously digest it, in my sleep or something. One day I wake up and it just makes sense as if I wrote it myself.

My shroom trips tend to be kinda 'useless' these days. It's for fun and pleasure, they're rarely these hard-hitting perspective-changing experiences I used to have a couple years ago.


subrosa wrote

For like 10 minutes.


We had a moderator that went off, and before they deleted their account, they sabotaged Meta, r/@ (here), made the sub private, and made a bunch of other changes.

All of the moderators that were removed in this action have been reinstated, and we are now in the process of correcting the actions the user took before deleting their account.


subrosa wrote

Slightly improved search engine translation:

It is considered the "Woodstock of Capitalism". Speculators usually flock to Nebraska when Warren Buffett invites to the Berkshire Hathaway general meeting. However, due to corona, his disciples had to sit in front of the screen this year. On Saturday the "Oracle of Omaha" spread good news among the coupon cutters who stayed at home.

Buffett is not interested in pandemics: "We've had bigger problems," he murmured, reflecting on his earlier words: "Be anxious when the world is greedy and be greedy when the world is anxious." Buffett saw a 5.9 billion dollar growth in the first quarter - an increase of six percent compared to the same period last year. How did he do it? Very easily: Financial capitalists are not involved in production. When a plant closes, speculators sell their share. Just the same, Buffett simply rearranged. Just in time he got rid of his equity stakes of the major US airlines, of which he owned around ten percent. Instead, the insurance industry brought him huge profits. The fourth richest person in the world, according to Forbes magazine, was confident in his victory: "American miracles and American magic have always won, and they will do it again". His investment tip: »Never bet against America.«

Only one problem haunts him, like many other wealthy people. They don't know where to go with all their money. The markets are grazed. Buffett has struggled with acquisitions for a long time because the valuations are too high for him. "We don't see anything particularly attractive," he said on Saturday. Maybe a bet on the decline of the empire? The chances increase every day.


Reply to comment by subrosa in Progress by subrosa

subrosa OP wrote

Good point. I still think the reading lists should include Proudhon, just avoid making excuses for his bigotry. He was wrong about some stuff, but the writings on government, progress, property, etc. are worth sharing and discussing.