seitanicqueer98

seitanicqueer98 wrote

fuck me i should never have opened that pandora's box. i just spent the last 2 hours reading the top posts on r/elsagate and then, to make it worse, the linked dossier of the Dutroux Affair from the r/conspiracy post. those fucking photos are burned into my brain forever now. fuck everything. the last time i had this kind of crisis was when i was like 14 and learned about Junko Furutu. i really cant process this.

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seitanicqueer98 wrote (edited )

i use duckduckgo. and signal. half the people i text don't even have it so i'm guessing that's not great.

i have a chromebook so i can't use Tor until i teach myself to install linux, which has been a very overwhelming process so far. i have a lot of stuff on my plate so i guess for now i'm resigned to living in paranoia.

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seitanicqueer98 wrote

im emotionally fucking exhausted. these men are on such a fucking power trip. just watching those two cops gang up on Rush, over something as fucking arbitrary as jaywalking. except wait, it's not about that, it's about Rush daring to disobey their authority. and then the cop says "it was just a ticket! and you wanted to act like this!" nah dude, it was just jaywalking and YOU wanted to act like this. i bet he was waiting his whole shift to unleash his pent up violence and racism

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seitanicqueer98 wrote

i mean, it helped me stay awake and on task for 24+ hours, so i was productive in the sense that i finished the paper i was writing. did it increase my creativity or enjoyment of the project? nah. i basically used it for the stimulant effects it has on me. 5/10 experience, might microdose again under different circumstances, like doing art. overall, my thoughts can be summarized by what Defasher posted. not a huge fan of lsd for productivity.

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seitanicqueer98 wrote (edited )

i would say it varies. there are people on the extreme end of the spectrum who regard it as some sort of sacred symbol of patriotism/nationalism, who support bans on burning it, etc. the american civil religion theory proposes that the flag has a religious dimension for a number of conservatives/christian nationalists/people who glorify militarism. even if people don't worship it, a lot of others romanticize it or see it as a popular decoration

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