roanoke9

roanoke9 wrote

To me selling out is personal and individual and not something you can tell another person has done unless you're pretty close to them. I have thought about selling out, what it would mean if i did, what offer would warrant doing it and i think its a good thing to introspect on. Throwing it around at others ususlly means simeone put unwarranted faith in another person, which turned out to be unfounded and they ate now mad about that.

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roanoke9 wrote (edited )

Reply to comment by wednesday in Free Feet Freedom Front by kinshavo

Shall i list the strange myths that might be floating around their head contributing to this? These are all things that exist but the mythical component is the idea that if you go without shoes outside EVER, you will DEFINITELY experience these -tapeworm, tetanus, trench foot, broken glass, needles, unnamed parasites, frostbite, rash, insect bites, etc- all things ive heard parents tell kids as reasons.

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roanoke9 wrote

Whatever is(yet is not) underneathe all the constructs, all interpretations or conceptions- the unnameable which the void does not and cannot refer to? In practice, letting my need for explication go and well, its pretty counter to the idea or lack thereof to attempt using words, but of course i started it by my own phrase...

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roanoke9 wrote

I just find myself taking issue with hierarchical systems claiming to be hierarchy free when they very much are not. Bookchinites and related strains for example. Personally i learn to grow things and defy hierarchy in every interaction to the best i can. Im not very socially apt so alot of social anarchy just sounds like popular people rule to me. Systems of oppression arent just physical infrastructure, they also exist in people's heads and those don't automatically fall when crisis occurs- -people are going to starve and die, i might be one of them, but i am not going to claim this can be averted by any means i know of. I operate by, no authority nor lack thereof can avert this thing, i despise authority, so i will do my best antiauthoritarian life irregardless. Will i pefectly achieve this, no. Will i come into conflict with irl fake-antihierarchical orgs? Not much so far. Will i conflict with existing hierarchical power structures? Try to avoid, evade, because thats a pretty quick end to me. Basically, no use recruiting me, i do my own thing as much as i can and will continue until the end of me. If your nonhierarchical org doesnt tell me what to do and try to make me do it, we're cool.

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roanoke9 wrote

I do feel my life is worth living- and i dont think escaping all the ills of this world is even possible- some escapism has helped me catch my breath and stay alive but if that were everything, it wouldn't - i live my life in a particular way and interract with others irl in that way- thats the effect i have and the only thing i can build without authority. Supporting authority in any way is counter to how i want to live. This honestly accounts for 100% of my energy and activity. So asking for my help to build a better world amounts to asking me to do more than i actually can or to change my values to do something i don't believe in. You do it ypur way, ill do it mine, if you do it with authority we could conceivably be at odds. I had an interesting few months once when i got super obsessed with impending climate collapse and it just made me miserable, nonfunctional to the point of being bedridden, no one listened anyway, had lots of tech fix ideas about albedo- so its fun to see the articles where serious sober journalists talk about stuff that was fever dream material for me.

Learning to grow food in adverse conditions has been the direct replacement for that death spiral i was in. Its win win win- good for practicality, mental wellbeing, environment. Stopping asteroids or global rise of fascism, or global environmental collapse??? Im doing all i can do already- i am already changing my own way of life, it is not set in stone, but im on a trajectory. It doesnt involve orgs or movements or petitions or companies or politics. Ask me about next years garden? I got ideas, plans, projects. Top it off, mostly it takes me a week to do what woulda taken a day a few years ago, so I have to constantly adjust my expectations because my abilities are fading. Id just rather care for an injured cat, plant things and see them grow spend time with the few people i somewhat relate to. Im not doom n gloom burn it all down 24/7, that would end me faster than escapism overload. Anyway thats my rant-

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roanoke9 wrote

  • if tech drops too low to achieve such a thing when the time comes, c'est la vie. With authoritarian hellscape as far as the eye can see, i don't see the appeal of preserving life to just spend more time in cages. Or to make cages in space or on other planets. Im not a death worshipper, i just don't regard death as the worst thing.
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