saw one on there that says Lefist activist have to be impersonal, compartmentalized. as like machines.

to me, it sounds horrible. not my trip to the pool

well first, please believe what people are telling you that after 6 months like that and such small items, you are good. and still, even if you are caught, the court will likely offer a diversion program where you pick up trash or fill sandbags for a few days and won't tell anybody about it.

i could see no reason to go to target but i feel like walgreens isn't as easily avoided.

even if you are caught i don't think it will effect your schoolwork. maybe just telling your parents and counselors about it will ease the paranoia.

does social media have a deterritorialising / capital-accelerationist, cybernetic effect , hostile to people?

those aren't leaders, they are authoritarian mechanisms!

i think fulfillment of immediate desire would build onto the long-term purpose. how -do you find- are they separate or incompatible for you?

how about , let's do anarchy / communism.

i'm sorry

i will

thanks, i will try to be more entirely elsewhere now, then. yet the potential for seeing again will persist around me, enchanting like that forgotten forest in dreams. and this is a confounding paradox, the mad hatters tea-party

chewing herbs like Oregano is good . the electronic water-pick feels pleasant compared with regular floss and is effective , there was a brand-new one in this house i found.

when i was a kid my Grandpa drew a cartoon of me as "flag bearer" standing atop a mountain, victoriously raising-up the Family name. he told me it was my responsibility to carry on our lineage.

i think that might have contributed -in part- to my social anxiety complex.

the feeling i'm stuck on here , addicted. that i'm wasting my life in a quixotic or sisyphean nightmare , that i am manipulated for some unknown reason , downward spiraling death-trap

clear a hurdle and become a satisfactory writer<

i mean i want to participate in an ongoing communication with people of shared experience. i want to believe in the potential for scientific study/ puns, and storytelling to bring people together in a common thread, to fight, to commune. i don't give a shit for acadamia, higher powers or greater society. i care about individual people's accountability processes, holding space for conversation/growth, honoring habitat . this would be affinity as phenomenon rather than ideal thing, not only do i cry for it, i require it. i need to find it somewhere.

i don't have to look at capitalist news spectacle to keep-on tuning the intellect and sense of place

obsessive paranoid delusions

not the gross shit, whenever possible

i like noordinaryspider

feels like a lot of condescending sarcasm , bullying, domineering-scorn. maybe some trickery/ alt-personality attempting to arouse further conversation. i wonder if it's only a couple of people or some brigade from the chats that i'm not allowed to participate inable to access. i can'tcan i be real if i think people are faking it or they're starting from a place of dis-respect~~.~~?

opportunity for critical deconstruction of cultural tendencies in a group setting. people actively engaging with a trace of humour that -for some reason- interests my fancy./ in this place i feel some kind of commonality , like maybe there's some people here i'd like as friends , who might help me to clear a hurdle and become a satisfactory writer /

feeling uncomfortable is also symptom of lacking comfort ! fwiw

ok

you mean people are nice in real life ?