raindropq

raindropq wrote

Reply to comment by GlangSnorrisson in Eco-fascism? by CircleA

it does feel abusive and it is confusing because i like and care about each of them. truth be told, i'm optimistic about these relationships , learning to practice patience and how/why to trust. i believe them they want to help and work together. gardening is good chance for communication

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raindropq wrote

Reply to comment by GlangSnorrisson in Eco-fascism? by CircleA

interesting. i wonder that i may be around some of these typos recently who think i'm a fascist. they have mentioned supporting the Democratic party and identifying within the "realm of anarchy". i think they are playing tricks on me and i have to play along as they are neighbors , collaborators on a common gardening project. they seem to be using their social-power against me , attempting to frame me as some kind of bigot, or just getting-off on insulting me

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8-11-9: coffee 7c, tobacco 3g, cannabis 3.5g, Psilocybe cyanescens 2 ( @4.5hr interval) lager 47oz

9-11-9: coffee 7c, tobacco 3g, cannabis 3.5g, lager 47oz

10-11-9:coffee 7c, tobacco 2.5g, cannabis 3g, Psilocybe cyanescens 2, lager 23.5oz, IPA 23.5oz

11-11-9:coffee 5c, tobacco 1.5 g, cannabis 2g, Psilocybe cynascens 0.5, lager 63 oz

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it's been so long, i've forgotten so many stories. my social sensitivy is so damaged by the frenetic civ-society , and some of people around me seem to be functioning as heartless tools. if i can really go live in the woods , i may find that i can still see . but i don't tell ghost stories, sorry.

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i can't stand the thought of objectifying a scene. i did used to imagine a life full of friendship , making art, studying, mountaineering. these days i'm happy just to wake up and do it again , meeting one person at a time, learning not to expect any degree of respect from anyone. I believe Raddle to be my local anarchist scene and i even imagine some of the people on here may like me as i do them and we could make moves.

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raindropq wrote (edited )

wow. you have had an extremely terrifying experience. i hope that there are supportive people around you're able to feel trust with, and i wish you strength in recovering from the wounding.

other commenters here have already spoken helpfully, so there are supportive people around, here. deferring to what community there is when attention is needed, for help, and advice, in navigating such a complexity as this situation , is optimal. so not a hypocrite or invalid abolitionist for looking to what recourse within your capacity, to protect yourself and others. the court and prisons system is very far away from the beautiful, mutually-supportive society we want as abolitionists but, maybe some time locked down will be an opening for your ex to awareness of the consequence of their behavior. i hope they learn something from their time .

a situation which i recently had some minimal involvement with. yesterday i heard that a neighbor with whom i'd recently had some interaction during my explores had been arrested and charged with cruelty . i'd noticed the house abandoned and full of trash and i was especially interested to investigate as it has a creek going through the front yard and backed by a forest on its other side. i wondered how it was abandoned and fantasized about cleaning it up and making it good as i walked up the driveway between piles of garbage and broken things. i stepped over the gate of the white-picket fence and into the house where i saw something was very much more wrong than i had thought to suspect. there in full-of-shit cages were the carcasses of doves and guinea-pigs in various stages of decomposition. dozens of them stacked, all with dead animals and full of shit. and more discarded cages scattered and piled with shit from floor to ceiling in every room. horrifying to think, "who does that?".

i then met with a neighbor across the street and told him of what i saw and asked who's house it is. turns out he lives in the house next-door. so i went to meet him . he presents as bright and kind even with the stench of his house behind him. to my perception he seemed unaware about the severity of what he was doing when i told him what i'd seen in his house , like genuinely nonchalant . i told a few other neighbors and checked in with him a few times as i buried most of the animals and moved some of their shit to our nearby gardening project .

i wish that our neighborhood could function as a society to look out for eachother and neighbors to check in and intervene , helping to unlearn abuse.. but the neighbor across the street has known this guy 30 years -and he has a lovely garden- but let the abuse continue, angry instead about vagrant addicts. i think the ACAB movement is on our own streets between our homes. abolition is healing, community relationships.

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reified view of identities

fallacious conclusions

this is how politicians are fascist, not just racism.

one's personal integrity account is personal and fluid, that is its unique essence. any attempt to express or extract (manipulate) a form, to objectify a being - is an oppressive corruption.

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