nihilistique

nihilistique wrote

Reply to comment by !deleted52046 in by !deleted52046

I'm agreeing with you, though less based on experience with the game because I haven't played it, and more of the scummy corporate with the "play before release if you pay more!" which is another shitty practice getting normalized in the industry.

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nihilistique wrote (edited )

Reply to comment by BLVDE in My attempt at art by calamada

They/Them, but in a "Genderless void-thing" way :)

The only pronouns I don't care for are he/him and she/her though

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nihilistique wrote

Reply to comment by BLVDE in My attempt at art by calamada

You are probably joking, but I'd love to do something like that with someone lol, have something different to do :)

Honestly feels nice for someone to invite me to something in general, even if it isn't literal

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nihilistique wrote

Oh, so the ants took control of the ant hill and are beheading the queen, but the cool ant is blowing up the guillotine and ant hill because no one should have it?

I'm reading too much into this, aren't I?

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nihilistique wrote

Reply to by !deleted52046

Seeing as you are a new user, I should probably mention you shouldn't use the r slur here. But yeah, fandoms around games published by the massive corporate gaming industry aren't fun to deal with in general. People never really learn from anything, they just get angry, say "I'll never fall for gaming scams again!", then proceed to buy the next game, or they get angry and feel a need to justify their purchase.

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nihilistique wrote

Okay, thank you. I really should know what comments on these videos are going to be like, justifying beating children because they don't fall in line and shit. Just let kids be kids, this world is shitty enough as it is and the "mature adults" aren't helping by killing off the world youth is growing up in. I wish I didn't have the whole "mature for my age" thing driven into me while simultaneously being treated in such a condescending way through my life, it sucks.

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nihilistique wrote (edited )

One of the things I remember from last school year was when one of my friends was dealing with a breakup with some guy, and I overheard some of that guy's friends talking about the situation with one person saying "Girls with trauma are crazy" or some bullshit. People are very willing to start suddenly being sexist or saying a number of shitty things when they break up with people in general I feel.

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nihilistique OP wrote

Reply to comment by ruminator in Emotional build-up by nihilistique

Thank you. I get very self-reflective and self-critical, because I want to do what I can to not reinforce the oppressive bullshit of life, and I get upset about that because it can collide with me just trying to graduate high school and deal with home life, various expectations and social shit and whatever. I mean, I'm already failing two classes, and I'm afraid of repeating this year because it should be my last year, and if I can just get through this it is one less thing to overwhelm me, but it is hard to get through because my brain just has a hard time functioning over all the stress I have and things I try to get done. I end up getting nothing done when I'm trying to get everything done.

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nihilistique OP wrote

Reply to comment by Daan_H in Emotional build-up by nihilistique

Thank you, and yeah, that sounds like me. A big part of why it is hard to express things is I get too overwhelmed to express things, and I tend to not have a lot of chances where I feel safe to express things to others, life gets in the way and contacting people outside of school isn't really an option. I care about other people very deeply, it is just hard to express that externally, but internally it affects everything about my life. I think I kind of rely a lot on caring for others to take care of myself, because that is something I really enjoy doing when I can, but when I don't have a lot of opportunities to connect with people well due to how my life is, my life feels kind of empty and all I have is the stressful parts of my life and overhearing friends talk about their stressful lives without really having the ability to give input at those times. It is a lot.

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