jouissance OP wrote

I don't care if the fascists have to win

I don't care democracy's being fucked

I don't care socialism's full of sin

The immutable system is so corrupt

But what is exciting

Is the challenge and stimulation

But the tensions help keep it creative there’s no doubt


jouissance wrote

Depression, extreme anxiety, self-hatred, and the overwhelming urge to die. Also, being in a Rust Belt city surrounded by smug Boomer suburbanites and liberals/socdems who condemn anything that isn't pacifism and worship the police as though they're gods.


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jouissance OP wrote

I'm utterly without community to the point where I'm struggling with daily suicidal ideation and sadly cynical to any chance of me ever experiencing a feeling of "community."

Much of that comes from my own lack of effort or misery, but I think it's fair to say that as far as human warmth is concerned, so much of this world seems like it's going through a god-damned ice age.


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jouissance wrote (edited )

All our cities gonna burn

All our bridges gonna snap

All our pennies gonna rot

Lightning roll across our tracks

All our children gonna die

All our children gonna die

All our children gonna die

Then the west will rise again

And then the west will rise again


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jouissance wrote

You've been reading through Braiding Sweetgrass too, eh?

I'm on the final section of the book now, and you're absolutely right. The soul-sucking emptiness of the dominant culture makes me suicidal every time I'm faced with it, and that's every single day. I don't know what to do, I've been in despair for more than half a decade now.