bloodrose

bloodrose wrote

I have been in an abusive relationship in the past. Abuse fucks your brain and makes it harder and harder to leave the abuser. They undermine your executive function, making it hard to make any decisions in life, creating a generalized anxiety around everything. I know you may be in a situation where you can't leave now, but may I suggest that you start making plans to leave? You are feeling like you aren't good enough to get a job because your brain has been hijacked by abusers. If you can get away, your brain can heal. I personally wrestled with the same feelings. Once I got away, they began to go away. Probably took 5 months. You can do this. Just do it safely and be kind to yourself if it takes you a while.

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bloodrose wrote

What place does history hold in your anarchism?

None. Kinda none. Is that odd? I tried to have a discussion with an anarchist in real life and all he cared about was what dead dudes I had read and I told him that wasn't my jam. I could see his esteem for me drop in that moment and it stopped any conversations about anarchism with him. It bothered me that it was so important to him. Is it very important to other people here?

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Reply to comment by bloodrose in Friday Lockdown Talk! by Tequila_Wolf

bloodrose wrote

Awww. I hear you. What has helped my work from home situation with my kid is to be in my room with the door locked. For her, it still feels like I'm at the office and not sitting at home ignoring her. Mine is 5 though, so your mileage may vary.

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bloodrose wrote

Had to go grocery shopping today. Everyone was really kind. I have no gloves and so used plastic bags for gloves. Someone saw me as I was leaving and gave me a pair of latex gloves. This means in a few weeks when I have to go back, I will have a pair of gloves. That made me really happy. People were keeping their distance and the store had tape down to tell people how to stand apart. I felt a lot safer shopping for groceries this week than I did two weeks ago when the virus rate was even lower. I was so worried and scared that things would be rough out there and people just were nice. I love when people come together and help each other, even in just the smallest of ways.

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bloodrose wrote

I've heard tell from my company's HR department that police are asking where people are going when they are out and about. Because a few of our workers are considered essential (we do some tech for hospitals), they are issuing the workers notes on company letterhead explaining that we are essential and thus it is ok for us to work. Otherwise, I haven't left my house sine the shelter-in-place order went out so I don't know what the reality on the street is. I have been trying to encourage my family to take walks with me outside to get some fresh air but no one is taking me up on it. I've been doing squats and pushups indoors. At some point, I want to get outside.

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bloodrose wrote

I'm stuck still working (but from home now). I have taken on the added domestic duty of managing our food stores and cooking every meal. No more convenience foods for anyone in this family and I'm the only one who seems capable of meal planning and cooking. My husband has taken on the extra role of home-schooling our daughter. And we're at emotional capacity. We can't do anymore. My husband is on burn-out now.

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bloodrose wrote

It's a prion disease. It has not yet jumped to people. However, I think if it did, it would be similar to mad cow disease. I don't think it would be a community-spread disease. It would be avoidable by not eating deer, I believe.

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bloodrose wrote

$40 million is 0.67% of $6 billion. Ask them to calculate 0.67% of their savings. Then ask how hard it would be to part with that money. That demonstrates that it is not generous.

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bloodrose wrote

I've been working from home the last week and staying indoors since we had a possible covid-19 exposure at work last week. I am an extrovert. This is a very trying position to be in as an extrovert. I have my husband and kiddo but I purposely try not to talk to them too much at once because it can be tiring for non-extroverts to take the full brunt of an extrovert. I miss the idle chit-chat with strangers at the store and small-talk with coworkers. No one talks on the phone anymore so I can't even replace that with phone talk and frankly, it's not a very good substitute for seeing a person's face change when you interact.

If you have extroverted friends, send them a hello or a cat picture or something.

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