Splinglebot wrote

the idea that there should be exceptions for "the stupid" or those that are "incapable of controlling themselves" I feel has worrying implications. Isn't this one of the main justifications that nearly every dominater uses for their domination? "The poor are too stupid to run their own lives", "women are prone to hysteria, or are too emotional", etc, etc. A central part of their propaganda is to suggest that those they control are too stupid to control themselves. That little section just seems to be chomsky's parent-child hierarchy on a busy road all over again


Splinglebot wrote

it always baffles me how the people who demand individuals conform to the environment they exist in (that is created by all of us collectively) or else they're lazy are so often the people who are most insistent on calling themselves "individualists"


Splinglebot wrote (edited )

Instead of public discussions revolving around what freedom is and what it should mean to us, our public discussions revolve around how to keep "Nazies" off Facebook. Normies are apparently incapable of understanding that when one group does not have the freedom to speak their minds, no one does.

I see...

this reads like something I might have thought at around 16 when I was starting to feel disillusioned but hadn't really got very far with questioning the status quo yet


Splinglebot wrote (edited )

I recently saw the night sky in a remote place with almost zero light (and air) pollution for the first time in my life. I had no idea just how much light pollution there was even in the most remote places I'd been before... made me even more bitter about light pollution than I was previously


Splinglebot OP wrote (edited )

lmao I didn't mean to write a fuckin essay but apparently I can't not go into unnecessary detail... enjoy the story, CIA.

Personally, growing up I was always relatively egalitarian-ly minded, had a disdain for domination, a mild skepticism of hierarchy and also a strong sense of inclusivity with sympathies for anyone I thought to be marginalized. But at this point I hadn't really questioned too much about the fundamentals of the status quo. When I first started thinking politically at around 15 I defaulted to a sort of "a long time ago there were monarchs and shit and we were not free now we are free because we live in a democracy". But I soon developed a strong disdain for the first past the post voting system, which was the first crack in my illusion of what I thought liberal democracy meant. (Especially when I found out that where I live, the conservative party has been in power locally since the 1800s).

At around this time I had started to develop an interest in history - particularly political history - and learning about the history of colonialism and imperialism carried out by european powers led to the second crack in my illusions about the status quo. (I was always somewhat aware of this, but never really gave it too much thought) I found it increasingly difficult to defend the distinction between "the past where these things happened" and "now when they don't" that I apparently had in my mind as I learned more about how the modern day came about.

Over the next couple of years I developed a strong disdain for the attempts at increasing surveillance in this country and became increasingly anti-authoritarian. It was around this point I took my first baby steps towards a critique of power structures as I started to think about corruption.

At some point, I learned what a communist society was, and started to see the USSR as a co-option of communism. At this point, although I didn't know it at the time, I had basically made my way to the position of a democratic socialist - thinking "I guess the only way a transition to communism work is if the majority of people were on board the whole time and it were done democratically". At this point I wasn't really aware of what was wrong with capitalism and while I thought I communist society would be preferable I wasn't really committed to it.

Eventually, with all these things coalescing in my mind, the skepticism about power structures, the anti-authoritarian sentiment, the disillusion with the liberal democracy the status quo had to offer and the idea that communism might be preferable if we could just figure out how to get there, I stumbled across a youtube video by Libertarian Socialist Rants. Actually, it was because of some right-wing "friends" of mine at the time that this happened - they were doing your classic "socialism is when the government does stuff and is basically synonymous with communism", so I went to find a video I'd previously watched that explained the difference between capitalism, communism and socialism (naively thinking they might watch it and stop strawmanning lmao) - the LSR video was in the recommended. It was something about US imperialism and - I shit you not - my first reaction was "lol what is this, russian propaganda?". While I heard a little about the US' shenanigans in foreign affairs, I didn't really know about the extent of it, and this video was one of the final cracks in my old worldview. From their, I started to watch some of LSR's other videos and they resonated a lot - this was the final catalyst I needed to completely shatter the remains of my old liberal worldview. Honestly it was what I can only describe as an internal revolution - a disillusionment phase in which many of the last vestiges of my old assumptions were overthrown in a couple of weeks. From there, I started learning about anarchism (although I had a month-long phase as a baby ancom in which I unironically thought the "unjust hierarchy" meme was a good idea), and all the other parts of existing oppressive systems that I was previously unaware of. After a couple of months I stopped considering myself an anarcho-communist in favour of an anarchism-without-adjectives approach.

As a final note, partly thanks to raddle, I started to enter another disillusionment phase at the beginning of this year after reading Desert, becoming much more skeptical of industry and civilization in general

TL;DR libertarian socialist rant's videos on youtube provided the final catalyst needed to shatter what was left of my old, mostly liberal world view after a long period of becoming progressively more skeptical of the status quo