Houtamelo

Houtamelo wrote

I also absolutely hate small talk, which is why i avoid it at all costs (i don't talk to strangers unless i have a good reason for it), when i go talk with my friends i always just speak my mind - no wasting time asking stuff like weather,etc.

Social hierarchies suck, being aware of them is good but caring about your place within them sucks, i only really started feeling free when i completely began saying "fuck it" to any thoughts regarding such hierarchies.

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Houtamelo wrote

My whole family is conservative and for them non-cis people is not a thing, my dad/uncles would always be like "walk like a proper man!" "stop being so feminine!" "how many girls did you pickup last night?". So i didn't feel like going against them.

Today i just hope my future partner spanks me in bed.

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Houtamelo wrote

Speaking as someone who doesn't know anything about autism (which is why i'm here - i want to learn about it).

That's a pretty hard question, almost as hard as "what it's like to know how to walk?", i can't remember how it was before i didn't knew how to walk, the same way i don't know how things where when i couldn't understand social cues. I guess i can say that i was born (or built pretty fast) which such database, then it's just a mater of accessing it and seeing what fits each situation.

I don't feel the same as CaptainACAB though, when i'm talking with strangers i always rehearse things in my head beforehand (that maybe linked to my anxiety though), i also hate making eye contact, it just, doesn't feel right.

On the other hand, what is it like to be autistic?

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