GrimWillow

GrimWillow wrote (edited )

As u/alex had experienced being the supposedly penitent repeat offender, I have also been there. There were times when my friends had simply said that they understand my apology, but that they couldn't trust me anymore. This is an appropriate response, even though I had been genuinely apologetic about the changes I would make for myself. I couldn't possibly be entitled to any more chances than people are willing to give (especially if it's more than 3 or 4 times), and out of having a desire to be accountable, I couldn't blame them for not trusting me any longer. They eventually did trust me again, but I am willing to respect whatever decision they made ultimately. We are both happy that I could be trusted again, and I was far more attentive to the changes I needed to make. The harsh lesson made it pretty clear that I can't just fuck around with people's trust like that, even if it's a habit and difficult for me to change; and that change needs to be taken seriously as a permanent thing, or there is no integrity for the respect I claim to have post-apology.

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GrimWillow OP wrote

Oh god I hate that. I argued with some self-identifying trump fans before the election, and they kept talking over me and viciously attacking hillary as if I would ever side with her and wouldn't even listen when I told them I hate her until I repeated it enough times. Once they realized I didn't like hillary, of course they assume I'm a bernie lover and the first thing they say is "Why would you trust someone that looks like Mr. Burns?!" lol wtf. I urged them to please just stop trusting any of them, but they were only preaching not conversing...

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GrimWillow wrote

I still lurk here, even if I haven't posted much lately. Been pretty busy.

Had a nice job lined up. It was perfect until a conversation with the employer revealed that we are not fond of each other's politics. We both instantly rejected each other at that, lol. Fuck that guy. Fuck doing anything that benefits that person.

Otherwise, my friends and I did some mayday actions that we are proud of, and I've been really enjoying the weather.

Good to see the site continuing to thrive. :)

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GrimWillow wrote

hbomberguy has said/done many bad things outside of that

I haven't seen all of hbomberguy's stuff, but of what I have seen, I found him to be pretty funny. I'm curious to know, and disappointed to hear, about the bad things.

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GrimWillow wrote

I have a lot of hope, but a lot of bad feelings about the future. I have plenty of friends and intimacy, but somehow still feeling lonely. I know what I need to do in my life, but I'm losing a lifestyle that offered me the freedom that enabled healing in my life.

I feel like I'm in limbo waiting for a great change. I need to discard a lot of ideas and patterns in my lifestyle that are holding me back. I need to nurture the effective Anarchist in my mind and unleash the passion at the center of someone engaged in active war.

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GrimWillow wrote

I honestly just chuckle at the meme because of the irony of how "NPC" they are in comparison. It's like the "snowflake" thing. The irony goes way over their head as they yell it, and I could never take it seriously enough to be offended by it.

But because of the types of people using it often, it is now yet another alt-right dogwhistle that outs them to anyone paying attention to general political discourse.

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