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Flute wrote (edited )

Reply to comment by SnowCode in What are your dreams? by SnowCode

recover fully from unknown type of respiratory infection and enjoy the spring when migratory birds fly here and plants begin to flower and grow leafs

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Flute wrote

when i think of future, it's usually wondering how i'll die, so i just try to live flowering nihilist now and not think much ahead.

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Flute wrote

yeah, i think it's typical that you just know things in dreams, i have that too. some years ago i was in hospital and they were giving me intravenous opioids and i remember once waking up super impressed on how vividly i heard music in my dream, i think typically there's no music in my dreams.

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Flute wrote

i am not convinced i have aphantasia but it seems difficult to know how one's own mind really works and due to limits of communication even more difficult to understand if it's similar or different to other people.

the most relatable thing i've read is how many autistic people have told they often need to translate their thoughts into language before being able to express them (yes, i've also been diagnosed autistic but i don't believe in essential "natural" truth of these categories), but it is not because i think in pictures but in some kind of abstract form of mentally perceiving relations of things, it's difficult for me to explain because i don't really wholly understand how my mind works.

but there's also words in my mind, like music lyrics playing on repeat or i am imagining conversations etc. but i don't have the kind of internal monologue that some people report having where some kind of pseudo-outer source is commenting the world around you and that would seem entirely unnecessary because i already know what's going on without that kind of commentary and if i experience some random thought, i always experience it as coming from me. and i can imagine music in my mind easily whether it's something i've heard or something i imagine on the fly but i don't concretely hear it though the experience is somewhat similar to hearing.

as for visual thoughts, maybe it's similar to music or words so that i can imagine something even if i don't really see or hear anything, but i think dreams are different because in dreams the visual perception is identical to using my eyes. it's just kind of seeing without the concrete visual perception if that makes sense. i am not good at drawing from my mind because i feel can't copy something i would see visually in my mind but i've to understand its form in abstract sense to be able to recreate it if that makes sense.

so ideasthesia, i'm too wreck-brained to actually read a whole wikipedia article lol. i don't feel things are associated to imagined sensory experiences in fixed manner but i think i perceive the world by associating every experiences with whole baggage of abstract "colour" (i.e. not colour or not only colour but kind of whole mess of things, i think it is related to how my mind generally works in some kind of weird abstract level)

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Flute wrote (edited )

i don't have a great critique or something you would expect because it's mostly similar stuff to what i've been thinking for a long time

He talks about how at the beginning of the pandemic there was this beautiful and engaging feeling of a universal experience, a togetherness, an active sense of solidarity against the threat of illness and pain of isolation. It connected us all for the first time in a long time. For a lot of people it was the first time in their livesthat they were experiencing something this globally unifying.

i just wouldn't view the social situation of early pandemic much positively. it was already worrying to be "unified" through global spectacle and there was a wide range of authoritarianism in play, no much room for critical thinking or actually facing the situation socially(/individually) (i.e. outside the hierarchical management and ruling through news). there's always people who are outside the perceived togetherness mostly gathering to dominant groups of people, like situation of homeless people getting worse due to lockdowns etc.

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Flute wrote

that doesn't make sense to me. it makes a big claim that carbon dioxide is not the main driver of current global warming but then lets the whole question of the cause of climate change remaining open while moving on to media narratives. how would the ABCs there even change if the main driver was something different than carbon dioxide, let's say methane? i don't think carbon dioxide is very easy and preferable thing for states and capital to handle because carbon dioxide emissions are in the very core of industrial revolution and they still have no idea how to get rid of it while also keeping the industrial society running full steam.

carbon dioxide is not the only driver of global warming but as of now it has the greatest effect while methane, nitrous oxide etc. are next and it's no kind of secret knowledge really that the climate is a very complex system

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Flute wrote

you have to decide yourself how you want to live. if you wait for science to provide rules for you, you'll end up managed by politicians using science to justify their ends. first, science is not neutral, and second, even if we know something, there's always the question of what we want remaining

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Flute wrote

i would rather view it as a concept to use and appropriate, not an image of me. if there are real anarchists somehow very keen on finding authorities to submit to, i'll laugh and move on as it's not in my interest to submit to any dominant form of reality but to build the world as mine.

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Flute wrote (edited )

Reply to comment by guarado in Sonic Destroys Metropolis Zone by ziq

It's not like the civilized industrial society after colonizing whole planet for its use is not already on path of killing billions of people, ending itself, and also already doing mass exctinction of species and killing quintillions of individual animals while also making whole ecosystems and ways of life vanish from the world. And I am not even "primmie", just not living in complete denial.

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