I'm 22 years old! I remember the day and even what I was wearing when I first started to worry about it.

For some background I was super underweight in 6th grade. I was 57 lbs and had a BMI of about 14-15. It was enough that I got calls home about it from school. I didn't have an ED and actually ate a ton. I just was pretty sick with random illnesses. I was always very used to being "the skinny one".

So then I gained quite a bit of weight when I went through puberty. So at the end of 8th grade I was about 95 lbs. I remember my mom distinctly telling me "you got fat" and poking my stomach. And I was still underweight then. So I started to gain even more weight and since then have been going back and forth with it. Binging and restricting and losing and gaining.

I would say that it really decide to stick with me around 18 years old.

So I am celebrating today for passing a huge exam so my friend group is planning on going out! 🤗

Breakfast: A quarter of a nature valley bar-50 calories

Lunch: Going to attempt to skip it - 0 calories

Dinner: Frozen margarita & chips ~800 calories

Snacks: As long as drunk me behaves, no

Total: 850 calories

I'm gonna try and go light this year but I feel like...I might binge :( I do poorly on holidays. I just hope the work up to it keeps going well so I won't actually gain anything too bad

Touché! (I might be a little desperate at this point too lol)

So, Peach is an app you get on your phone. It's kind of like a little diary! You connect with people by finding their usernames (there were some peach mega threads recently with people to connect with on EDAnon) and can see what each other post.

I think that it can be fun, but the format is kind of limiting. You only see friends content and there aren't really titles to the posts so they dont go by topic. It can be kind of confusing and things get buried if you have a lot of friends and people dont only use it for ED topics (but a lot do).

If you decide to join tell me your username!

As for the Discord, they aren't letting people join at the moment because there are like 1000 people there and they were having trouble keeping everything under control. They said they will let more people join towards the end of the year/early January!

And I would be interested in joining a Kik group!

Do you think we should try to promote this site to places like the discord too? Maybe that'll bring some people in. Cuz there were like 40,000 of us.

I just wish I had my sub back. Them taking away people's support systems is not helping anyone get magically cured from their ED lol

That is honestly what made me never want to give it a chance lol

I'm there too and I feel the same way. I feel like people are just lurking and don't know how to bring stuff up in the middle of a conversation.

With ED topics it takes some confidence to kinda lay it all out there. Especially when only a few people can see it before it gets buried

Yeah, I don't like how I have to open the whole post to see what it is about on peach lol. It feels so messy!

Can you elaborate on what you mean by half-baked?

Yeah, peach feels a little.. claustrophobic? Especially since the topics are all over the place it's hard to have a discussion. Also, there's a lot of content I want to see from people I might not necessarily be "friends" with.

I am using r/EDAnonymous so I don't have reddit withdrawal lol. It seems like a good handful of people are there too.

That's a very valid point. I'm on mobile too and it's eh, but I like how it has the upvote feature and how there can be separate threads. The format is similar to reddit which is familiar at the very least.

Yeah, I feel pretty similar in regards to reddit's admins. It was a safe place for so many of us.

What pisses me off is that we were shut down for promoting self-harm, but there are literal self-harm and cutting and gore subreddits that are fine.

Hell, there are even subreddits that promote the harm of others. Or sexually super fucking misogynistic subreddits that were just quarantined...

I have never modded before but would be to give it a shot! I am usually pretty active online :)