DaisyDisaster

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DaisyDisaster wrote

I have complicated feelings about this because I've been isolated from part of my family for a while and didn't get to learn their language and culture. I want to learn, because I feel like I am missing something about myself and where I come from if I don't.

On the other hand, of the family I do know, I don't appreciate their culture and have rejected it, for the most part. Their traditions aren't important to me.

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DaisyDisaster wrote

I don't see why I should necessarily sacrifice my life for my goals. I'd sacrifice my life for people in certain situations maybe, but my goals are there to serve me. I don't serve them.

I'd do things to forward them more if I weren't incredibly anxious and fatigued all the time, and if I had a better meatspace support system. As it is, I don't, and so I don't go out of my way to do things that would sacrifice my wellbeing too much.

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DaisyDisaster wrote

The first thing that's almost always suggested is to start meditating, but I'm sure you know that if you'be already done some research. There are courses out there you can take, but most cost something. I've found one that is free online (although there is a book you can buy) called Quareia. I haven't gotten through it much because I frankly have other priorities than magick atm, but it's based on visionary magick and uses concepts from Kabbalah, from what I've read about it. It deals with the Arbatel at the end of the course so there's also some Christian mysticism involved, I believe.

https://www.quareia.com/

If witchcraft is more what you're looking for, here's a list of books from some trad witches:

http://www.patheos.com/blogs/matauryn/2017/11/09/book-recommendations-trad-craft-witches/

And another from an occultist:

http://skepticaloccultist.com/post/156648727808/books-for-fledgling-witches

If you're interested in Chaos Magick, there's Liber Null & Psychonaut by Peter Carroll and Condensed Chaos by Phil Hine. You might check out the podcast Rune Soup. The host is a chaos magician and has written a book called The Chaos Protocols, which isn't really for beginners but you may find interesting.

https://runesoup.com/

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DaisyDisaster wrote

As someone who is just beginning their journey into leftism, youtube videos have been very helpful. Unfortunately, I was introduced to these videos only because I already had an interest in leftism. If I had none, I probably wouldn't have seen them.

As someone with ADHD, it's hard for me to sit down and read something for more than 5 minutes, and those few minutes are often spent rereading things I glossed over or didn't understand. If there were something like a wiki for leftist books that briefly summarized the arguments of a book in plain language, maybe chapter by chapter if not the entire thing (like Sparknotes), that would be extremely helpful. It'd also be good for my memory since I often forget things. I wouldn't have to reread an entire book to remember why a particular point is so, so it'd be a useful reference when arguing with people.

I got about halfway through The Conquest of Bread and a chapter into Society of the Spectacle before I stopped and forgot about them, so any help I could get to finish these and understand them would be great.

Oh, also, I think the reading club is a good step in the right direction and would be an even better one if it had more reach to those unfamiliar with leftism. I think our biggest obstacle is reaching people who are suspicious of leftism because of what they've been taught about socialism. The language/education barrier is easier to overcome than that, imo.

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DaisyDisaster wrote

I was bullied, verbally and physically, as well as sexually harassed by other children, and verbally bullied at times by family and teachers. It's made me extremely anxious around people, even good friends. I feel like if I don't act perfectly around someone that it will reveal some sort of exceedingly unacceptable trait to people and put me in harm's way.

On the other hand, I am a kinder person because I don't want people to feel threatened or hurt by me, so it's a mixed bag.

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DaisyDisaster wrote

I think it depends on what you mean by "misses" because many antinatalists realize people have children for that reason, they just don't agree that that's a good justification for having them. I'm not sure most of them would understand what being in that position is like, though.

One of the things that I've noticed about the conversations between antinatalists I've witnessed is that they don't really discuss what should happen to the sick, injured, and those that can't work who don't have children. There's a lot of energy put towards defending their position as antinatalists but not much on how we take care of people who can't be 100% independent. I think it's acknowledged that if their position won out, that there would be more suffering as humanity dwindled out, but there's not much discussion on how to lessen that suffering, ironically. It's just assumed that suffering would be less overall than the suffering that would continue if humanity lived on.

After some thought about this, I feel like I am moving away from the idea.

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DaisyDisaster wrote

I'll have to read up more on utilitarianism. I didn't come to antinatalism through any thorough study of philosophy. It was more through a question I asked myself while in a depressive episode of whether I would have chosen to be born or not if I had had the opportunity to have a choice, and coming to the conclusion that the risk of having depression in the first place was kind of forced on me by my parents giving birth to me, which might be some internalized ableism on my part. I only found out this position even had a name months later, when I found the subreddit. It's more an issue of the impossibility of consent for me than strictly reducing suffering.

Thank you for your thoughts!

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DaisyDisaster wrote

Yeah, that's the problem, you aren't open to correction. Your immediate reaction to us was defensive, not curious. You didn't ask us how we came to that conclusion, you just reacted.

I see your game and I'm not playing it.

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DaisyDisaster wrote

These things aren't determined just by individuals. There are people of color out there who have internalized racism and would disagree with me, however, I'm not basing my suspicion of absolute freeze peach on what one individual says or feels, but what a group of people generally experience and feel. And yes, I have been corrected by white people speaking out against racism when I find their arguments are sound. The same for cis people and men.

You aren't as rational as you seem to believe.

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DaisyDisaster wrote

I will not be talked down to by such a hate-filled ass clown like that, though. By his own admission, this is how he learns, so I was only giving him what he asked for. If you don't like it, that's just too damn bad.

Isn't a bigot getting what they asked for when they are mocked? How come Dumai "asks" for that by pissing you off but a bigot doesn't "ask" for it when they demean and dehumanize whole groups of people?