ConquestOfToast

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ConquestOfToast wrote

What you did with Defasher was completely abusive. I agree with you you know, and yeah admittedly me exploring more post left anti civ shit was a spiteful response to you, but regardless of how thankful I am now to have dropped morality and found some semblance of jargon that fits better to what I believe, what you did was unequivocally abuse. You hurt a lot of people here, myself included, with your actions, and 4 months is not enough time to forget the turmoil you created and facilitated. I'm not gonna comment on the morally pure bit because its complete horseshit. Look ultimately you can do whatever the fuck you want, but your actions and continued responses show myself and others here someone who is either incapable or unwilling to recognize the complete damage they caused. This isn't reactionary outrage culture, its anger that trust was misplaced and abused.

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ConquestOfToast wrote

You know your reactions are part of the schtick right? Like I'm not a fan of you either but half the reason people make jokes about you due to your past actions (which even you admitted we're fucked) is so that you'll respond exactly like you have. I mean do what you want to and all but yeah you're playing into it.

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ConquestOfToast wrote

It's more that you're not even here in good faith. The questions you ask point to a deep deep place of ignorance. The reason you're getting ignored or insulted is because you're feigning intellectual rigor without putting in the foot work to even have the conversation in the first place. You want us to answer questions within the purview you've already accepted as reality, and when we don't you shoehorn assumptions as some moment where you have the upper hand. This isn't a conversation, this is you screaming into the void, and patting yourself on the back when the void doesn't scream back.

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ConquestOfToast wrote

And the awesome thing is I get to learn from people like you. I'm positive that you have insights I've never considered, because I have that experience with most other trans folks as well. I hope that I do the same for others. I consider part of this project to be the dissemination and teaching other trans folks this tech so it will spread. Because I just can't shake the concept of various trans biohacking covens being the probably the coolest shit in existence.

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ConquestOfToast wrote

Nah that's the great thing about having different gender experiences is we get to discuss where we think they come from and get to talk about solutions that could help the whole Gambit. I agree with you, just so you know, I just also have a specific view and skillset, and would rather focus on those, so that even if it isn't a "solution proper", I can aid in part to something beautiful as a whole. Your narrative of existence is just as meaningful and important as mine. Because to be frank trans folks kinda just fucking rock in general.

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ConquestOfToast wrote

The vast majority of my dysphoria comes from my own body image. I've gotten to a place where I can give fuck all about how others see me, but I know my experience is my own. I started this project for myself, and others who want those same things. Given that my field is molecular biology I obviously view my solutions within that context. After viewing and researching what transition technologies we're available to me I was dissapointed at how almost archaic they are, and felt the need to make something better. But I agree that as shifts in the cultural knowledge and perception and gender changes dysphoria will likely begin to fade as a phenomenal. Or not, who knows.

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ConquestOfToast wrote

To answer the second part of your question. My politics are in flux right now, I'm reading into a bunch of stuff on nihilism and egoism and thus far seems to be a more accurate view of how I constructed my politics in the first place. I have always been a firm believer that we should view biology in a similar fashion we do social constructs, ie dismantling them for the sake of liberation, that nothing must be a certain way, that limitations on our expression of liberation should be deconstructed. And so too should those limitations be addressed biologically. That's initially why I latched onto transhumanism, I rejected the ought to of it, but liked and agreed with the increase in options. Back when I first took up the label, anarcho transhumanism was something very very different than it is now, and something that despite my efforts to correct has still turned into this weird technofetishist version of already boring and ineffectual anarchisms. The enlightenment era construction of the narrative doesn't suddenly become more appealing because it's in chrome.

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ConquestOfToast wrote

So I don't want to get super into it because I'm basically just consuming data right now. But short explanation is that sexual determination is controlled by a series of genes and I think, potentially, by turning some on or off you can force the body to switch gonadal type. But there's little research on what the effects of that would be, post development, so I'm in the midst of spitballing potential outcomes and trying to find literature that supports that. Currently I think for people wanting transition with more feminine characteristics (I legit don't know how to phrase this in a way that encompasses everyone under a certain umbrella) there's 2 solid avenues. I haven't looked into "the other side" of that, but barring major setbacks on this project that's my next obsession. That being said. Gender is a social construct, but so long as people exist that have dysphoria I'd like to try to alleviate that with more permanent solutions that don't rely on HRT.

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ConquestOfToast wrote

Somewhat. My obsessions end up placing me in a role of educator which I find tedious and ultimately distracting from my projects. I have yet to find a way to turn someone's interest in me and what I'm doing into ambition to help me. When I figure that out I'll let you know.

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ConquestOfToast wrote

It's settled into a focused fury at this point. In slowly coming out of a time when it burned everything around me (hello transition). But now I feel sharp and exact, like I've shed the bluntness. I no longer rely on my community or chosen family to get things done. I just do them. So in a way it's become liberating, but in others I fear the day it's extinguished.

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ConquestOfToast wrote

I went through a period where I wore nothing but khaki cargo shorts and a wool peacoat. No shirt, shoes, nothing. I had dreads at the time too. Ive since cut the dreads off (I'm white and was ignorant until someone laid into me about it). I still wear peacoats but have readopted shoes.