ConquestOfToast

ConquestOfToast wrote

Just ask her. From what you've put here it just seems like she has an active social life and isn't necessarily indicative of whether or not she likes you. That jealousy your feeling super needs to be addressed though because that absolutely won't get better with a relationship. The best advice I was ever given is that jealousy is my mind remembering the good times and struggling to predict a future from it. If you're missing pieces that won't let you be confident in your future, then find those pieces. It's usually something simple like the above, you don't know if she likes you like that, so ask her. As far as her drinking and smoking or what have you, someone can not like those things but occasionally engage with them to let loose. You're 18 it's ok to go a little buck now and again.

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ConquestOfToast wrote

Both of my parents are conservatives. But they both have a weird sense of importance around blood. So they took me seriously when I told them. They engaged with me honestly, and I've made some strides with my mother who frequently says shit like "I just want Star trek to happen", and using that as a starting point for discussions. Most of my family while conservative will genuinely listen to me, and adopt newer views with that information. It's frustrating as fuck sometimes though. My father doesn't believe global warming is a human phenomena. So he'll frequently ask me to back my case. Which given my mother's propensity for sci fi, and my father's love of pharmaceuticals is probably the only reason I have the habits I do concerning investigation. So I'm thankful for that. But they love me deeply. When I came out as trans they asked questions, my mother even going so far as to hire a LGBT therapist to learn what questions to ask, and have been easily my biggest supporters. So it's a mixed bag, but I genuinely believe regardless of the politics they adhere to now they will throw them aside if it hurts their family.

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ConquestOfToast wrote

Reddit anarchism got boring. Mostly new kids having the same conversation. I found the leftist spaces liberalizing hella fast, and I wanted more avant garde discussions. So I ended up here. Overall it's been positive.

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ConquestOfToast wrote

I started a company. We landed a huge contract which cut my moving time in half. So I've spent the last week stress vomiting and packing. I fly out tomorrow to start a life that I finally won't be fucking shit broke all the time. I feel weird about leaving the town I'm in because I both love many of the people here and despise large factions of them. It'll be nice to not live in the same apartment years of trauma happened in, maybe I'll even find a trans community at my new town that isn't fucking garbage. Lots of new things, super scared, doing it anyway.

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ConquestOfToast wrote

Soooo it's not actually that new of an ideology. Maybe it's current focuses are new, and some things have certainly changed since it's initial conception, but it's at least 100 years old. Nikolai Federov is probably the most comfortable being setting that initial point with his initial philosophy coming out during the mid-late 1800's known as cosmism. Claiming that true freedom was when humanity could explore the stars, defeat death, control the smallest of matter (what we'd now call nanorobotics), and resurrect all those who have perished. Most of which was wrapped up in some weird bundle or russian orthodoxy, likely because he was a monk and a librarian.

The next we see is from the early 1900's in russia a group called the Universalists and claim to be directly tied to Federov claiming much the same, but were explicitly anarchist in nature. They were more or less murdered in less than 5 years time of functioning by the Bolsheviks. The group that was born out of them were called the immortalists, or in some cases, anarcho-biocosmists. They share almost nothing with federov except the semblance in name as they showed similar ideological trends to french revolutionaries and dare I say egoism, and released a zine in the 1910's(I think, I'm pulling all of this from memory) titled Bessmertie which outlined space travel and immortality as major tenants of their ideology, they lasted a bit longer due to swearing allegiance to the bolsheviks, but were murdered shortly after 1920(again, i think). With major discourse hyperfocusing towards class analysis cosmism and it's children didn't appear often outside of these contexts with exceptions to a solid portion of russian cosmonauts and engineers claiming the term.

In the 1960's and 70's we enter fm-2030 who was the first person coin the term transhuman, by which we have the name now. To call him a futurist kind of does an injustice, as he was more just a radical optimist, his politics outlined in Optimism One: The upwing politick more or less just claim that all current left and right wing politics are just immature forms of a greater, more complex politick that would evolve with the technology we used and benefitted from. Somewhat during this period of time Max Moore coins the term extropianism, which I feel is somewhat self explanatory albeit explicitly capitalist, and the first time this line of thinking is tied to capitalism.

The rest is more or less shit you know, kurzweil and his weird obsession with "the singularity" and a number of other technoprogressives claiming the term transhumanism. It started out pretty anarchist but those roots were left behind, so now modern conceptions of anarcho-transhumanism pull from technoprogressive thought as opposed to the weird avante garde it was originally conceived. Although this synthesis is relatively new, given that most anarcho-transhumanists more or less made their own synthesis so it ranged from your typical ancom thought in chrome, to more abstract nihilist synthesis a la xenofeminism and cyber-nihilism, with roots in things like 90's cyberfeminism and the like. So yeah anarcho-transhumanism is garbage, but it was given every oppurtinity not to be, and took the laziest route. Which makes sense given that most anarcho-transhumanists are intellectually vapid white ideologues.

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ConquestOfToast wrote

To be honest i thought she was kidding at first but lo and behold I walk through the door and there's a lyra, pole, mats, and mirrors everywhere. I guess there will be a st. andrew's cross soon as well. I didn't know it was a thing until the other day. I guess there will also be a blood orgy there soon and I can't even begin to tell you how much that excites me.

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ConquestOfToast wrote

Been going a bit too hard the past couple days, body feels like it's pumping battery acid. Speaking of which I'm pretty sure that's what's wrong with my car. Met Galdra irl, she and her partners are as intimidatingly beautiful, smart, and gay as you'd expect. Had a date/thing last night that ended up with cuddles in a circus dungeon. Another partner broke up with me because I guess I'm kinda universally undateable. Started doing INI, and it's real fucking great at keeping my mood stable. I think that's about it for this week.

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ConquestOfToast wrote

Meeting with some folks to potentially start a baeddel group. Might be driving to another state next week to make cute friends. Very hungover. Found out I'm gonna have to drop one of my classes because I can't get my stupid brain to work. It's been a middling eh this week.

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