I'm moving across the ocean for University in a week and I'm nervous but also very excited to finally be able to leave suburbia

The God of Small Things. To be Honest, I'm not exactly sure what it's about other than a criticism of the Indian Caste system, but I like it.

Amazon, Military, and even DHS. Personally, if I see something, I'm keeping my mouth shut

to be fair, I'm not sure the average cop can be considered a person

I use Reddit for news but only headlines, and whenever something says opinion I disregard it. Anything more and I'd become a liberal again

I'm no expert on Buddhism but just from the way the article describes it, I feel like he might have slightly misinterpreted "making merit." It seems to be more about hurting yourself to help others, rather than just hurting yourself? idk though

This week was school vacation. I've been getting really into chess recently, which is an interesting game. It kinda carries an image of elitism around it, but to my surprise it's been fairly easy to learn and play. Of course, like most hobbies, you can spend ungodly amounts of money on it, but I've managed to improve quite a bit just with a internet connection.

If it's Russia vs. Nato, I don't think Russia is that stupid unless they can drag in China somehow. Russia is strong, but it's simply not that well equipped to handle the US and western Europe in a war at the same time.

I feel like everyone dislikes me

Today was my last "official" day of high school. They brought in all the seniors, and people just kinda did whatever for the day. It snowed a lot too, which is surprising this time of year. I'm glad I'll never see most of those people again, but there are a few who I'll miss

It is morally fine, most of the time. Especially when you're pirating Adobe's shit

Yeah I'm trying. I want to talk with my friends about it, but in the past when I've used my friends as therapists of sorts too much, they get overwhelmed and leave me. I've got actual therapy tomorrow though, so hopefully that will help

Oh nice, League seems like a good way to pass the time. A lot of my friends play it, and while they don't claim to have fun with it, they seem to like it

I've been having dreams about a girl I'm trying to get over lately, which absolutely sucks. I can mostly push down feelings during the day or distract myself enough, but how can I begin to control what I dream about at night?

Video games and watching people play video games in videos that I've watched several times before are the only thing getting me through this year right now. What types of games do you play?

Definitely wheat and oats. Wheat is mostly just cereal and sliced bread, Oats are oatmilk, if that counts.

I think that it's interesting to know and in some cases could be useful medically in that people from certain areas are more vulnerable to certain things, but I don't attach any importance to it. If it's a good story it's a good story, but it doesn't really change if the characters are people I'm not related to.

The only thing in my family history I'm even kinda proud of is that my Grandfather fought against the Nazis, but his accomplishments aren't mine so it's not that important to me.

Left or post-left?

My only regret is that he didn't do it sooner

I started going to therapy, which will hopefully help. My parents have both either gotten their vaccines or are getting it today which is good. Hoping that this whole thing is over soon

I wish there were still snow where I am. It's somewhat bland without it.

I've been feeling better recently. I'm trying to learn Nahuatl or Quechua or another indigenous American language, but I can't find the motivation to learn the vocabulary and I keep feeling like I'm horribly butchering the pronunciation.

I had a marching band game last night, and I felt very sad and like everyone hated me. I might quit if the next game is like that, It was just 6 hours of me going in a downward spiral.

I'm happy that spring is coming where I live. Winter and the snow are nice, but they keep me inside with my thoughts. In the spring I just get to ride my bike around and distract myself which is always welcome.