Basil

Basil wrote

This week was school vacation. I've been getting really into chess recently, which is an interesting game. It kinda carries an image of elitism around it, but to my surprise it's been fairly easy to learn and play. Of course, like most hobbies, you can spend ungodly amounts of money on it, but I've managed to improve quite a bit just with a internet connection.

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Basil wrote

Yeah I'm trying. I want to talk with my friends about it, but in the past when I've used my friends as therapists of sorts too much, they get overwhelmed and leave me. I've got actual therapy tomorrow though, so hopefully that will help

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Basil wrote

I've been having dreams about a girl I'm trying to get over lately, which absolutely sucks. I can mostly push down feelings during the day or distract myself enough, but how can I begin to control what I dream about at night?

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Basil wrote

I think that it's interesting to know and in some cases could be useful medically in that people from certain areas are more vulnerable to certain things, but I don't attach any importance to it. If it's a good story it's a good story, but it doesn't really change if the characters are people I'm not related to.

The only thing in my family history I'm even kinda proud of is that my Grandfather fought against the Nazis, but his accomplishments aren't mine so it's not that important to me.

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Basil wrote

I've been feeling better recently. I'm trying to learn Nahuatl or Quechua or another indigenous American language, but I can't find the motivation to learn the vocabulary and I keep feeling like I'm horribly butchering the pronunciation.

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Basil OP wrote

Reply to comment by jouissance in Friday Free Talk 3/5/2021 by Basil

I get that. I still have feelings for my friend who I broke up with about a month and a half ago now, and the combination of having romantic feelings for someone while also being friends with them can be a lot to bear, especially when you're touch starved. You are worthy of relationships though, you just need to find the right person. People who are right are few and far between for an anarchist, I find. If you ever need to talk about something, I'm here.

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Basil OP wrote

This week has been very boring for me, but that's not necessarily a bad thing. I'm recording to be on a game show of sorts on Sunday which is interesting, but that's really all that's happening in my life. I think things are slowly getting better for me, mentally at least. We'll see how quickly that goes away once I go to college.

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