Submitted by elyersio in offmychest (edited )
I live with my mom, who is crippled. Neither of us can drive. We've made a deal with our tenants who live in part of our house that they can get groceries for us instead, but they can only get our groceries about once every month. We're looking for someone else who can get us groceries and help Mom while I'm at school, but nobody will help us, probably because the house is a mess and we have a dog that's known to bite.
And it's my fault, at least that the house is a mess. Maybe because amongst doing everything my mom tells me to do, I enjoy the time I get to be on my computer. The sink is filled with dishes, the kitchen floor has trash on it that the dogs have chewed, there's pee spots everywhere. I don't even do my homework at home, I do it at school.
And I don't know what to think of my mom. I'm basically her slave, but she needs my care. And she's always saying something negative about me, slipped into conversation, or even in a compliment. She tells me I'm irresponsible, she's always begging me to do the dishes, she says I'm addicted to the computer. What if she's right? I mean, if I said that I don't clean up because I'm too stressed all the time from helping her, that'd be an excuse, right?
But to me, what matters more than cleaning the house, is transportation. I want to get our groceries for us. I want to get a job instead of living off the government. (from a leftist perspective, isn't it better to be a wage slave than to live off the government??) I want to take girls out on dates. But, I have to find someone to help me. The easy part is to find somebody who will take me to the DMV to get my learner's permit. The hard part is to find someone who'll teach me how to drive. (or maybe there's some driver's ed somewhere around here??)
My mom just called me, and she wants me to make tea for us today. She said I can do it later, if I'm busy doing homework or something. But I'm not doing homework, I'm writing this post. I don't think I could focus on homework here. Or maybe I just don't want to get away from this computer.
But I guess I could pick up some trash.
WindTalk wrote
Not sure where you live, but you didn't mention: Uber, Lyft, public transportation. Ridding public transportation can be an excuse to get out of the house and be independent. Even if you have to take 10 trips a month to get stuff, it's out and about.
I would really focus on the cleaning and keeping up with the cleaning. Living at the bottom of society, it can be a factor in things getting worse real quick.