Submitted by SnowCode in offmychest
This is hard. I think I am starting to realize one big problem that could be the cause of other problems I talked about on here.
I don't think absolute universal morality exists. Yet I was educated with christian morals, "stealing bad", "violence is bad", "love god", etc.
I still find hard to break from morality myself and start to think with my own ethics, I don't feel "justified" in doing so, I feel like I'm a monster and yet I know this reasoning is completely flawed and dumb.
When I was a kind my biggest fear was to be a psychopath, a sociopath or a bad, immoral person. And it seems this fear don't want to disappear.
This is one of the reason I almost never open up about myself, even to friends, because I don't know how they will react and all.
I feel like I have a duty to care completely about what everybody else says. Even if it's just a complete random on the internet, because I thought the only way to be a moral person was to never hurt anyone no matter what, and accepting everyone's beliefs.
Did you ever experienced something like that? How do/did you deal with it?
lettuceLeafer wrote
I would be far more afraid that u r not a psychopath. Being a psychopath is incredibly based. I'm half joking
For me personally my grappling started bc I was acting extremely imorally. So when I dropped morality I felt way better. Tbh most of these things just argue with yourself and over time u'll convince urself. Just tell ur self why u shouldn't care about what others think and why u don't like morality. If u allways challenge ur gut feelings they minimiz and minimize untill they to away.