I can't say I've ever experienced that visual phenomenon.

Squawk

Try it. Could be fun

Some of the letters attract, some repel, and some, like p and q, are like a switch

i just put on my glasses

Seasonal position's almost over; have to find a new job soon. Rent ate up my whole paycheck and then some because no one else could pay it.

Been spending the past 3 weeks trying to re-haul the decade + old writing projects from my linux switch debacle whenever I could find both the time and the motivation to do so (which I seldom could); file recovery got a few recent docs, but mostly duplicates from 2013 (and holy shit that stuff was cringe inducing).

New pokemon game is a glitchy mess, but I've been having fun with it; and with a franchise like that, I'll take whatever good I can get.

thank you. :)

it was quite cold actually and unfortunately i didn’t have a hammock but it was still fun and definitely something i want to do again. i’ll just have to bring some warmer clothes and do some more research on making a successful fire for next time haha

i'm glad the public health system finally came through for you. as for the ephemeral nature of life, we humans are the only species on earth 'intelligent' enough to be concerned about it.

Well that particular type of harem does sound nice lol.

Maybe not going to be a super villain but you know I honestly think I can only get more based from here.

But my relationship with my wife is getting better which wasnt an outcome I expected.

B O R I N G

I was hoping you would turn into a super villain with a harem of big titty anarchist gf/bfs. Instead you're just another happy family gamer. Congratulations 👏😒🎉

I agree that a lot of what's considered illness or disability is really just a matter of access. My ADHD is only a hindrance in capitalist contexts. When I have the time I need to be able to take I am capable of being very productive. It also centers my ability to produce as a mark of my worth.

I also wonder, like with regards to so-called mood disorders, if I wasn't raised in a culture that told me that I was only worth anything based on how attractive I am, how thin I am, how friendly I am, if I didn't have a society built on shaming me and trying to sell me on how I could be better/prettier/funnier/more desirable... If I didn't have a verbally abusive parent, constantly echoing and reinforcing my insecurities... Especially as we're coming up with evidence that things like chemical imbalances aren't real... Would depression exist in the same way? Is my depression socially created and supported by trauma? What would be different if we lived in a different world?

Suddenly and all at once nearly a dozen tasks I need to perform appeared and I really need to finish them by the end of the week or things will probably start not working, not ideal but I'll get them done. Other than that it's been a very quiet week for me, might start some fern cultures if I have time.

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That's a shame on that front, but nice to hear that some things might be looking up for you! I hope all goes well and you end up happier for it.

Squawk

I hope it goes well for you! In the right place and climate it can be very nice, especially if you have a hammock.

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I hallucinated violently and was extremely incoherent after my first and only time going under general anesthesia. Thought that a show on television was my real life and that the world had ended, a close friend had to console me for several hours about it, very weird experience.

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"Neurodivergent" probably doesn't add up to much more than self-pathologizing and the collective construction of a universal neurological type to diverge from. I consider that a mistake. In any anarchic setting, we'll encounter and learn to navigate (already existing) neurodiversity, with everyone diverging from each other. Having traveled a fair range of possible brain states, and considering all the people I truly know, I have no reason to consider anyone typical.

(But none of that detracts from what you're saying.)

Well the board game night that I mentioned was supposed to be tonight but my coworker got sick so its cancelled :( Was looking forward to some board games.

I wont talk about it here much (god I am going to turn into an ad for mastodon). But my relationship with my wife is getting better which wasnt an outcome I expected.

Been thinking a lot of my aversion to conflict and my general milquetoastness. I think I am ready to do something big I have ideas forming that could be interesting. Nothing I can talk about much though.

i’m camping in the woods without a tent tonight.

i’m pretty naive when it comes to practical skills (which i suppose is partly why i’m doing it) so it’s an interesting experience so far haha

deep thoughts by tuesday:

When people say that someone is an anarkiddie or that they need to touch grass, what they're actually doing is dismissing the person they're talking about based on the idea that this person is either too young or too disabled or neurodivergent to pay any attention to, thereby removing their need to respect a person's full humanity.

Doesn't sound very anarchist to me.

I hope you get raises soon then. <3

I'm being paid like a technician while having an engineer degree, because it's my first job I couldn't find anything better. At least it's fun-ish... I'm keeping my eyes open.

i too am looking for a job now and some of the ads for my profession are so disrespectful with their expectation of what qualifications they require versus what they're willing to pay, or are asking for 5 years experience for an entry level position. ugh.

when my gall bladder was removed i had a fluttering sensation in the place i assume the organ used to be. it was very strange.

Recovering from the appendectomy... It's strange because I am experiencing a déjà vécu, like I already had this experience but I never had.

The drugs they gave me in the anaesthesia gave me feverish visions for days, the one you close your eyes and an spontaneous imagery forms in your minds eyes like an inner cinema.

And besides the simplicity of the injuries I sustain from the surgery my understanding of the feeling of fearing death and the ephemeral nature of life gained more depth. it's humbling but it's also freeing. I can say that my personal conception of Nihilism got more strong after this, but more nuanced too.

Anyway, how everyone's is doing?

an echoed voice responded:

-Anyway, how everyone's is doing?

I need to start looking for a job again, am running out of money and the govt is pissed at me again for not paying stuff.

Remember when this site weren't a wasteland? Lol.

Thanks, I will get medical leave and vacations together probably lol 2 months afk