Covid cases are still rising in the US [https://peoplescdc.org/covid-this-week/] and Canada [https://health-infobase.canada.ca/covid-19/current-situation.html] & it's still killing immunocompromised people & leaving those infected possibly disabled from long covid. (Granted the situation in Canada where I live is better but that doesn't change anything)
To say "I just realised" was a lie, actually; I knew this all along somewhere but made a point to ignore it. Because me and my family & friends are all able-bodied, young and physically healthy. I wanted to move past 2020, and I could afford to not care about the consequence so I didn't care-- the cognitive dissonance is so fucking scary.
I also realise I'm making this post all about myself, but I'm trembling so much I could barely type. I'm a Chinese immigrant and I remember the start of the pandemic when I felt so helpless that the government did fuck all and people laughed at the Chinese diaspora urging precaution while our loved ones at home were dying. And in the first 2 years I was so, so angry at people not masking, getting together, attending events and pretending everything was okay when it's not. I think I didn't want to stomach the fact that the majority of the population was fine with leaving the most marginalised to fend for themselves anymore so I just became one of them.
Regardless, I'll definitely return to wearing an n95 in public and you should too if you aren't doing that right now. God I feel terrible