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stagn wrote

Emotionally I feel like shit, as usual my trust on people is very low, plus yesterday I recalled traumas from when I was little, that is my father (recently died) beating my mother, and these memories from a long time ago add up to all the current concrete issues including precisely the problematic relationship with my mother, how terrible the family dynamics were (and still are) during during the death of my father who died of cancer about 2 years ago and... And it's not just the family, everything else sucks a lot too....

Thank goodness that there is beautiful nature to always fill me with joy

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stagn wrote

With the first warm weather so many plants are growing much better than I expected both cultivated and wild. Maybe in the future I will give a more in-depth report, now I will reassure:

The chickpeas(cicer) have also survived the winter and are growing well, whereas the Lathyrus sativus despite its reputation as the hardiest legume of all I think has failed.

On the wild ones: There is some wild lentil that might prove interesting, and I found a type of wild oat (I don't know the name) that has already made seeds that could be very interesting in terms of its ability to avoid drought

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asterism OP wrote

Fuck.

for what its worth i hope you can resolve the issues in your relationship with your mom. One way or another. I think families should be a place we can draw strength from but more often than not all we get is trauma.

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kano wrote (edited )

Totally shit weather 3 degrees and raining all the snow that collected is now mud and I hate winter. Looking forward to next weeks forecasted 13 degrees and raining.

Just spoke to an old friend for the first time in 5 months or so and gave them the chance to come out to me verbally because I'd only heard it through txt message and that was good.

Annoys me when companies I apply to and do interviews with and coding challenges or whatever just ghost me.

Thought I was gonna go in a national park today but the only person in the group who could drive decided not to go so none of us could go. Annoying to always be dependent on people for car transport maybe I should finally learn.

Edit: so a couple hours after I posted this it stopped raining and like a blizzard started and now it's snowing and there's more snow then there was this morning.

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ratratratrat wrote

it is the opposite here, getting to like 90 degrees in march so that sucks, i hope the weather gets nicer for you soon, here i am looking at it getting warmer and warmer

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ratratratrat wrote

spring break yay! going to cuddle with rats and relax all week long πŸ€πŸ€

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tuesday wrote

I can't just keep posting these for free.

you can and will. 😀

the situationship with my roommate continues to be both challenging and wonderful. living with another anarchist is putting my ideas into practice in a way that they never have before. I'm learning so much about myself, the ways that i communicate and the ways that i interact with others.

despite my anxiety and the struggle of dealing with the stress of work the job continues to go well and my boss has been vocal about how well I'm doing which feels really good if only because it means that I'm doing well for folks who need an advocate.

school is also going well. I'm half way through the semester and sitting on another a. immigration law is an entire maze made of forms and waiting times and bureaucracy. it's amazing that anyone is able to make it through tbh.

all in all i think things are going well for me. which is like... very cool. but weird. I'm trying to be in the moment and relish what i have but fuck it's hard to not expect that this will all fall apart.

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subrosa wrote

situationship, that's a good word. I'ma keep it.

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NoPotatoes wrote

fyi I've normally heard it used in a negative context, but you do you.

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tuesday wrote

i think it can have a negative connotation because of it being complicated, but it's a pretty accurate description of the relationship I'm not in because it's more situational than emotional or romantic but more intimate than a fwb situation.

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NoPotatoes wrote

Yeah it is certainly a useful word, and I don't think a situationship is necessarily bad or unhealthy, but many people who seek a romantic relationship use the word as a pejorative, and one might want to keep that in mind while using it.

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NoPotatoes wrote

So I moved into a new place this week. Just today got a mattress and couch. Mattress was new, and quite expensive, so hopefully I like it. Couch was used and very cheap, but I cut the inside of my mouth while moving it :/

Overall quite happy not living with the folks... was always awkward cooking and just generally existing around them while we did our separate things... my sister commented that she was jealous that I lived alone... she lives with her fiancΓ©... d'oh!

Randomly saw a friend while driving around the city... recognized his car by the bumper stickers, one of which was the "Don't Eat the Homies" vegan sticker. I had honestly thrown in the towel on hanging with him (he had been quite unresponsive as of late), but I guess fate, uh, finds a way.

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kin wrote

Getting good weather those days, 23Β°C yesterday I think, it's nice and improve my mood beyond expectations.

Im always jumping from one side project to another lol, I can blame an imaginary undiagnosed mental disease but I cope journaling and taking notes, a lot of notes.

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existential1 wrote

Paid free99 for my premium account. Came with a cool knitted frog sitting on a rock.

In other news, roof has been leaking from ice damns from melting snow. Life...uh...finds a way...to fuck with ya.

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Majrelende wrote

People have been seeming particularly surly and disagreeable this winter. I'm not sure why that is, but there seems to be a collective mentality that unites people in mood with no apparent connection.

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