A silly title but i don't know how else to title
Also the sort of thing i would probably post on my own little forum but I do not have one yet so maybe in future I will and then i can say lots more. until then, a little bit here :) Sorry if there is a better forum

Just thinking about what things and creation mean to me. I love to take things people call garbage and make something new. I love to tidy and give everything a home so it's most useful, easy to find.
Things are just things on one hand, but also sometimes easy to forget where things come from and what it takes, especially with mass production. So no matter what i like to try think about this and be grateful.

i wish these circumstances different and I want to fight how i can to help that, make what i can, restore or repurpose as much as possible, teach others skills too. But it's hard to avoid all this especially when disabled.
I try not to guilt myself, but there were real materials and in at least one step real people involved in making and getting my things to me. I want to always remember and be grateful for that, to treasure do my best to keep these things "alive" in some sense as long as possible not just discard. I do not want that work and material to just waste.

It is easy to regret and feel shame, but not always helpful. be grateful i say, not the way of someone cruel telling you to "shut up and be happy", but just remembering everything comes from somewhere and taking steps to preserve where possible