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ziq wrote
it doesn't mean anything, it's just an excuse they used to justify what they did
has happened to me before with even flimsier excuses
Potkea wrote
im sorry about that ziq
Potkea wrote
Im okay. Thank you for asking.
Im not sure what spotlight they were talking about. I didn't even see one.
so they flash a spotlight at you and you are supposed to freeze or something
I think so.
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Potkea wrote
Thank you for your concern, styx.
kin OP wrote
I am in the verge of break up with my lover bc the whole relationship was built in half truths, but I really wanted it to work, maybe that's why I delayed this decision, I was keeping feeding myself illusion and conscious ignoring red flags.
I was emotionally starved (still am probably), and this keep me attached to this weird relationship. Great part is my fault, I was a bad partner and didn't gave what she needed... Fuck dunno how to do it, besides acting like a prick..
My self esteem is so low now that I will probably surrender to any half assed solution that pops up in my head...
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kin OP wrote
Yeah she took the first step, I was hoping to get a face to face conversation but my shit attitude to ghost her for a couple of days didn't helped at all..
We were very different and almost nothing in common, but I hoped to build something, and probably didn't help my lack of effort.
I was wishing to feel relieved because I was anticipating this end, but now I am just feeling confuse and sad. The sad that makes you feel trembling inside, like your stomach wants to turn inside out.
The bad part is that this probably damaged the friendship beyond repair, not that it was a good friendship but I like to think it was sincere.
Sorry to dump all this on you
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kin OP wrote
I really appreciate..
Thanks for taking your time to read and giving advices...
She just invited to drink a beer, but last minute she went home with anxiety... She is not well too. She then asked to bring her dinner, so I grab one of his favorite kebab, a pizza and juice for her kid. I think we want to be friends at least.
Probably was a mix of anxiety and sadness, if I stayed home I would smoke some hash but now I am taking some beers, probably I will get an aspirin later before sleeping.
I am very bad to verbalize my emotions clearly, godammit I am not even aware what my emotions clearly are... She want to have a conversation tomorrow.. hopes everything go well
lettuceLeafer wrote
Breakups fucking suck. Hopefully u don't feel devestated too long. Plus maybe u now have a better chance to find a cool deleuzian partner who will tell u about the cool theory they just read.
ziq wrote
illusion gang
lentils wrote
ahh fuck school
Potkea wrote
Is the anarchist library not working for anyone else?
usa.anarchistlibraries.net still works tho
Archaplain wrote (edited )
alright which sicko is DDOSing the library
edit: its back, nvm
ziq wrote
it was down but it didn't look like a ddos
Archaplain wrote
yeah it was probably something else, since it came back on as soon as america woke up
Archaplain wrote
Recommend me a game that is not an AAA (no FPSes either, gotten really bored of them now)
when_you_sleep wrote
OMORI, Stardew valley, Terraria, Metal Gear Rising and Relic Hunters
Vulgar_Soda wrote
What are you into?
Archaplain wrote
recently played Disco Elysium and loved it.
Vulgar_Soda wrote
Disco Elysium
I haven't touched it, but my sophisticated gamer cousin wouldn't shut up about it for weeks; he said the game was amazing. Maybe I'll give it a go this weekend. Still too hot to go outside ...
Lately, I've been on the hunt for a solid multiplayer FPS. Haven't found one that clicks. I rather not waste my time on exploitative "free-to-play" hamster wheels. I tend to play older games though, so the problem is probably me.
I don't think I could recommend you anything. I played a bit of Panel de Pon last night. Always brings a smile to my face. Did you try Elden Ring during all the hype? It ran like shit on my PC. Supposedly, I'm missing out.
Archaplain wrote
Nope, i have never been a fan of souls-type games, but yeah DE is worth checking out even if you end up not liking it, which you probably wont lol. speaking of FPSes i finished the half-life series last month and its a fav of mine now especially episode 2.
Vulgar_Soda wrote (edited )
i have never been a fan of souls-type games
same. I usually love try-hard games, but there's something so ... drab and lifeless about souls. Must be the turd-esque aesthetics. The controls feel sluggish too. Every non-gamer-identifying-person that I've seen try 'em hates the games too (unlike Flower or Tetris or Bomberman). I'm convinced souls games actually suck, and are only put on a pedestal for gamer cred. Like how beer sucks, but people pretend to enjoy the flavor to fit into sOciEtY. Then again, I could have shit taste.
i finished the half-life series last month and its a fav of mine now especially episode 2.
Been thinking of checking out the series, especially considering how half-life 1/2 are always on BEST EVER lists. but I do worry if I'm spending too much time wallowing in the past. I tend to emulate most everything I play, because most everything I play is some old console game. Was never much into PC gaming. I mean, I had my fun back in the day with Team Fortress 2 and Left 4 Dead. I even got sucked into an MMO not named WoW. Yet, PC classics elude me. I was more of an arcade kid. and portables. Ah, just thinking back, how I loved playing games in class. and now, with the magic of emulation, I can play games literally anywhere. I can have entire console libraries on my phone at all times. HOORAY LIFE ENDING CIVILIZATION. DAILY DEATH AND DESTRUCTION ALL AROUND THE WORLD, PLASTIC IN MY LUNGS, GOVERNMENTS ARE WATCHING, SPREM COUNTS BE DROPPING BUT I HAVE FINAL FANTASY VII IN MY POCKET.
I'll check out DE for sure. Eventually. Probably. Freedom Planet 2 just came out, and I loved the first. There's Stray. and that lamb cult game looked cute. OH GOD, I wish I had a social life ;-; I hate video games so much ;-; I'm too old for this shit ;-; Where did I go so wrong?! cry cry. cry cry. Back to Castlevania I go.
Archaplain wrote
i only had a ps2 growing up, so now that i finally have a pc i am playing all the classics i missed, Stray is good yeah definitely worth checking out if you are a cat-person, the lamb cult game looks neat havent tried it yet tho. i havent played that much retro only a pokemon here and there, as i was typing this i realised ps2 is considered retro now 😭😭😭.
I wish I had a social life ;-; I hate video games so much ;-;
so true
lettuceLeafer wrote
I actually vastly prefer the taste of cheap light beer compared to like wine. It's like bitter soda. Tho I've drank enough I think the taste of ethical tastes good.
I wonder if that's a big part of it. Alcohol is like cigs in that initially you hate the taste tho frequent users think the smoke is great. So I would imagine if you don't like the taste of ethonal beer would taste like shit.
Fool wrote (edited )
I can't remember if it later came out on Console the first Portal game is great if you didn't play it. (Well and the second, but that was way more popular)
Archaplain wrote
i have played it, its great.
tuesday wrote
citizen sleeper
Bezotcovschina wrote
Outer Wilds
Archaplain wrote
ooooh its from the same dev as stray.
mofongo wrote
There are a lot of cool anime (5) coming out this October. Decided to get a Crunchyroll account because pirating that much anime is annoying, specially hunting for a good and subtitles combination. My partner says I went from a sexy pirate to a salary man that pays for anime. It inspired to make my first website, sexypirate.website. May open a mastodon instance on it later.
Back on topic, the mouse trapped Bleach in its money-grabbing claws. So, I'll have to watch those by other means.
ziq wrote
3rd rock from the sun finally got an AI upscale release.
kin OP moderator wrote (edited )
Without link no upvote, sorry ziqqerinnx
Archaplain wrote
based, lets hold them votes hostage.
ziq wrote
Now I just need King of the Hill.
Potkea wrote
The cops were called on me bc I was walking in my neighborhood.
Three cops came to my house and patted me down bc of a "suspicious persons" report. They said it was bc I ducked their spotlight when in fact I didn't see them and I don't even know what I did to have them called. I cooperated them and they left me after I confirmed who I was and that I lived in my house.
If I were a POC, that interaction may have turned out a lot differently.