Submitted by idkalice in lobby

i really don't want this to be perceived as an attack by anyone i just wanted to share my feelings and i didnt know where else to put this.

so basically like i said i used to be a libsoc but idk it wasn't really anything very specific but last month i've started shifting towards anarchy and stuff. for some reason i've been abusing the search function of this site for takes on shit and i guess i appreciate everyone's differing viewpoints but a lot of this is scary to me and i have no fucking clue what to believe anymore. so i've been pretty miserable and i've been having trouble eating and sleeping properly. i just don't know if there is anything for me anymore. idk shit sucks

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Tequila_Wolf wrote

Feel free to talk about some of the things you're concerned about and hopefully among the responses you'll find something useful to you.

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lettuceLeafer wrote

I'd be down to talk if u would want. I would say I don't understand what u mean but I do remember. Ideology is like a weighted blanket but in reality is just a blanket with a bunch of cops and Joe Biden sitting on ur chest.

So throwing off the blanket is scary at as u loose the comfort of daddy Biden sitting on ur chest. So idk don't worry to much just live it life and kinda mull over ideas for a bit. You'll adjust and go back to being fine. What ur feeling prob I'd quite common

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idkalice OP wrote

thanks for the reply (i didn't like biden tho i still thought the state was trash)

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Majrelende wrote

At first, it does look like falling through the rabbit hole: all sorts of things and theories to look at, then one by one they all pass by. I remember that I was glad to be falling, that the ridiculous aloofness was gone...

Eventually I hit the earth, and decided that I wanted to believe nothing (not that I'm succeeding extraordinarily-- it is difficult while living in a society, though I am trying.) Being the universal ideology, nothing-at-all is completely correct in all respects, because it makes no particular statements about how things are or how things should be. All it says is one imperative: "Keep quiet and listen to the world."

When I listen to myself, I find that I reject authority. It makes me unhappy, and destroys everything that sustains us, that we hold dear. When I listen to others, I find out how they want me to help and interact. (Sometimes I don't follow with my whole heart, especially when other people trample me and treat me like property.) When I listen to the wind, it tells me the names of things; when I listen to the water, it says, among other things, Help! I'm channelised and disgruntled! and when I listen to the meadow, it says, Come and pick milkweed fruit. So, while there are ideas to be deconstructed and scattered to the wind, I say believe what the world tells you, not other people; I hope that helps with finding solidity in the world, and with your health.

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deeppurplehazedream wrote

Maybe look through some of the privacy and security stuff as well.

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idkalice OP wrote

good idea i guess

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lettuceLeafer wrote

don't worry too much about it tbh. It is usefull to know but a lot of it is written by people who get off on being paraoid bc it feels like they are doing something useful. In this day and age if ur in a 1rst world country u can say mostly whatever u want and not get COUNTERINTELPROd. I mean if ur gonna rob a bank or whatevs yeah good idea but its not necessary unless u do crime.

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deeppurplehazedream wrote

At least read the WIKI Practice Good Security Culture to Protect Your Identity. For example, 1. you-should-not-trust-people-you-meet-on-this-platform

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lettuceLeafer wrote (edited )

That only applies if you are using tor. If you aren't using tor thats like having a wall with a open gate. Its a complete farse that makes people think they are more private when they aren't. And the average person isn't logging into tor. So my point still stands.

If they aren't protecting their identity from the get go with tor then its very silly to start after their identity is allready probably pretty easy to get due to IP being public knowlege.

Edit: mostly I'm just protesting bc I think revealing personal info is something quite beneficial as its not super uncommon for people to be distressed due to being alone. So having a low standard of security culture has many benefits. Sure it is important but like for the average user it isn't and is just a detriment in my eyes. Mostly letting government intrusion win due to bad risk assesment. I mean I'm prob pretty easy to figure out who I am. Which in fairness if I didn't do that I would rarely use this site which I think would be a detriment.

So idk, there is nothing wrong with security culture and its good to read but its more academic for most people and not important or time sensitive. I think pushing it as something that is important for everyone is a problem.

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potatoes wrote

Sorry to hear you are having trouble eating and sleeping. Hope you find some comfort. Have you tried meditation? Is there anything keeping you up?

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Majrelende wrote

To mention as well, I find meditation (as I have practiced it) to be detrimental in some aspects, because it can make a thought vacuum that, once I stop, lets in everything I would rather not think about. I do not doubt it works for some people, though.

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idkalice OP wrote

no i don't know much about meditation sorry. i'm kept up by various perspectives on anarchism and stuff that i have some trouble understanding and am also sorta scared by, idk it's hard and idk what to believe.

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potatoes wrote

Well the good news is that based on what you've said I don't think you are in immediate danger. One of my mentors always told me "don't panic, have a plan". The idea is that you can't help yourself or anyone around you if you are too distressed, and that one of the best ways to alleviate stress is to plan for stressful scenarios and know what to do.

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