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Tequila_Wolf wrote

I got off facebook, probably for a good while especially since I'm not sure what my password is - so I'll likely be posting less stuff around here. Got a bunch of stuff I'm working on that's slowing down other parts of my life.

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Ashy wrote

probably good, a lot of social media sucks if you abuse it. also zucc lul

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existential1 wrote

Just watched like 6 youth, 2 of whom are indigenous, talk about how masks shouldn't be worn because they don't help and people their age only have .02% chance of dying from C-19.

Fade me.

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Ashy wrote

i think my sleep is back in check which is cool, otherwise didn't do much this week. not a lot of stress

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bloodrose wrote (edited )

Had a bunch of social shit last weekend (my brother's 2nd wedding and events surrounding it) that made me really hate my family. This post was longer but that was dumb. Suffice it to say, family is a spook, too. Fuck family.

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lettuceLeafer wrote

My thoughts on family are real interesting. I don't like it really get along with my family members. At best we are on neutral terms. They piss me off and I can't stand being around them a lot. We both have done fucked up shit to each other. But damn if shit goes wrong in my life or shit goes wrong in their life we are there for each other and will pour a ton of resources to support each other. So despite the many troubles with family dynamics I really value having people who have my back. I've never had that experience with anyone non family members. This applies to my parents and a couple of my uncle's. Not the other family members. Part of me thinks we have this dynamic due to being extremely poor and having this primitive anarchist mutual aid is essential to survive. I don't have this dynamic with any of my other far richer family members

All the other ones are kinda but n miss. Some are just complete shit heads who I should just stay away from. Tho some of the hem are kinda nuetral distant relationships but we both help each other out mildly. There are some that I'm pretty close with who we get along with allright. We don't talk often but we do talk about our lives, help each other out and are people who I often reach out for advice and emotional support in big decisions.

It's a mixed bag in my experience. A lot of real shit, some nice stuff and a lot of the values and practices that showed me how useful anarchism is before I knee what anarchism is and the value of craving freedom.

Even despite the mostly negative stuff I would be disappointed if I didn't have so many familial relationships.

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bloodrose wrote

My original post had a lot more detail. Yeah, I have family members who are legit. I told my cousin when he adopts a newborn to call me and I'll show up on the weekends and do their chores for them. I would do anything for my family members and I love a lot of them.

However, my mother is a narcissist and she has chosen a "golden child". That child is my brother. I originally had details about how awful that weekend was with direct examples of how this affected me. I really don't know how to get away from that woman while my daughter loves and adores her still.

I thought my mother had gotten better when a few years ago she told me she got a life insurance plan out on herself with me as the beneficiary. I told her that was a silly thing to do as she was going to outlive me anyhow but it was nice that she was thinking of me and my future. Then a few months ago, she starts ranting about how I shouldn't expect anything from her, there is no life insurance policy or anything like that. It was a really fucked way to say "hey, since you bought a home near me I no longer feel the need to manipulate you into keeping your child near me so I dropped that thing that made it seem like I care about you."

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moonlune wrote (edited )

Have nice weekend my e-friends. What can I do to help a irl-friend who's depressed?

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existential1 wrote

Whatever they say they need and be prepared for "nothing at all" to be the answer.

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bomprimo wrote

Just being there for your friend is 90% of the work I believe. Ask your friend how he/she/they feels and don't judge. If you friend is being medicated ask if he/she/they are not skipping the meds. You are good friend for thinking of ways to help your friend :)

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annikastheory wrote

We are finally getting our kiddo into a better situation. We just found out from my sister-in-law that things were worse than we thought. So I am really relieved that my in-laws won't be watching her any more.

Got the bosses off my back too so that's a relief. Money stuff is looking a little better too. My eyelid did start twitching a little throughout this week, never had that happen before. But other than that things are looking up.

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bloodrose wrote

I'm glad to hear that you find other arrangements for your child. I think it'll do your kid good in the future to know that their parents protected them - what a feeling of safety you provided. <3 <3 <3

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annikastheory wrote

It was really affecting her on an emotional level. its done my soul a lot of good to have that fixed finally.

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Ashy wrote

are you tired? that happens when i'm tired. maybe get a snack or something if you can

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annikastheory wrote

Yeah I read somewhere that coffee, stress, and tiredness are the main causes. Had a ton of all three at the beginning of the week when it started. I am going to try and cut out coffee for a little bit (probably need to drink more water anyway) and get more sleep.

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Ashy wrote

i never really got the appeal of coffee. it's just really yucky to me lol
coffee flavored sweets are good though sometimes, like coffeecake or coffee ice cream or my brother makes these really yummy fancy cookies sometimes with espresso

drinking water is great for mental and physical health. back when i was doing virtual school and over the summer I used to drink from mason jars, they hold a surprising amount of water...i found the main thing that was preventing me from really being hydrated was just i'd run out of water and have to refill my cup all the time. no one wants to do that lol

helps with stress and alertness (from my experience)

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annikastheory wrote

I had like a super sugary gas station cappuccino as my first ever experience with coffee and I was pretty much hooked right away. I actually prefer tea but coffee is more addictive and usually gives me more of a jolt. Caffeine has pretty quick diminishing returns though and eventually its more of an addiction than a help.

I think one of my coworkers probably has it figured out. She doesn't touch caffeine and eats sliced apples or oatmeal when she gets tired. Probably what I should start doing. I've always been bad about drinking water but I'm getting more into the habit of it.

Cookies with espresso sounds lit. Going to have to check that out.

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Ashy wrote

I had like a super sugary gas station cappuccino as my first ever experience with coffee and I was pretty much hooked right away.

yeah i've tried that kinda stuff! even that's just nah for me. i guess different people are just different like that. i really don't even get a 'kick' out of coffee when i drink it, it's just kinda whatever

Cookies with espresso sounds lit. Going to have to check that out.

the cookies tho i'm like off the walls lololol they're great. it's from the youtube channel tasty he got the recipe from https://yewtu.be/h4CyhQqAPpk check the pinned comment

She doesn't touch caffeine and eats sliced apples or oatmeal when she gets tired. Probably what I should start doing.

yeah that's probably smort. apples are super tasty

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annikastheory wrote

Yeah I ain't saying the gas station cappuccino was anything special. I had super bad eating habits as a kid, so I could actively hate something but I would still eat it if it was sugary enough. (still have that problem but at least now I know its a problem and sort of manage it). I think caffeine is just highly addictive for me and so is sugar so it was just a super addictive combo.

Its interesting how sometimes people don't get addicted to stuff. I have a relative that has tried cigarettes on a couple of occasions and they do nothing for her.

Thanks for the recipe they look great.

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inthedustofthisplanet wrote

I have a 64 oz thermos I fill up about 5 times a day! :O

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Ashy wrote

how much even is an ounce 1.818L? dang that's a lot. you don't mean you fill it up like empty to full 5 times right? cause that sounds like a lot a lot of water lol

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Ashy wrote

didn't know that was a symptom of diabetes, huh

i'll drink 2-3 at home but probably like only 1 or 2 on school days. i bring a water bottle but it's not that much and for some reason i just don't really remember to drink at school

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lettuceLeafer wrote

I drink a lot of coffee to counteract the drowsiness form sedatives. God knows coffee was so helpful in me being a academically successful despite doing drinking alcohol all day.

It was also super useful alternative I've to taking methylphenidate untill it started spuring mania in me later in life.

Also I would drink so much coffee to help manage hunger and drowsiness from severe ling term calorie restriction.

Sorry I realize u didn't ask but I typed it all out so it feels like a waste to deleted the nontraditional reasons why I like coffee so much.

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yetanotherusername wrote

started reading Liber Null because of this website. So far it's got me trying meditation and i started using inter-dental brushes so i guess it's been worth it

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bomprimo wrote

I've been feeling quite angry at myself and the world lately because of a series of problems I've been having. Besides financial problems and having depression for some years now I've been having some symptoms that could have been Covid-19. Thank god I've received the result of the CPR exam today and it's negative. My family has been a great support. I feel like that most of my problems are derived from the capitalist system in which a girl or a guy working 40 hours a week can't really live comfortably. I started getting depressed precisely because I was pushing myself to study and work ever harder to get myself a better job. Capitalism sucks.

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lettuceLeafer wrote

Yeah I'm of the opinion that anyone who isn't a capitalist with a decent amount of capital or a worker with some sort of decent paying career field trying to be dependent on the white market economy is a horrible experience which has no real security which was the whole purpose of white markets in the first place.

I feel for u. Tho that does jack all to help ur problem. :(

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annikastheory wrote

I just created /f/vim because I wanted an excuse to talk about vim lol. But if anyone here is into vim you should totally post some stuff there. I will try to get a couple posts up today or this weekend.

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calypso wrote

hi guys, anything interesting happen this week? someone at my school replaced the soap in the soap thingy w piss

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CaptainACAB wrote

Due to my drastically changed schedule, I've gone back to my hobbies of reading and writing because video games are pretty much impossible for me to play outside of my days off now.

It's actually been pretty nice; I glanced at a short story I left unfinished in mid 2016, found myself horribly embarrassed by it and wrote something else. When I finish my little story I'll compare the two side by side to see how much I've improved.

Also, started working on my ankle mobility because it turns out that I've been doing squats in the worst possible way this whole goddamn time.

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