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zoom_zip OP wrote

thoughts from this week that i didn’t post anywhere else


i’m going to quit my job this year. i don’t have anything else lined up. i don’t know what i will do to survive. i don’t have answers to any questions, i just don’t want to be there so i’m going to leave by new year. i am giving myself those months to figure out how to live.


i like the sentiment of empowering sex workers. the whole “we all sell our bodies” shit. it’s cool. but also i feel like some people are taking it to the point where they aren’t addressing how deeply coercive it can be, and also the fact that anti-work means anti-work and not slightly better opinions about work. would many of these people be selling their bodies if the alternative wasn’t you and your family starve to death in a gutter.


raddle feels tense and weird at the moment and i feel like a lot of people have bailed, but i don’t keep track of people’s profiles enough to know. i’ve felt like i wanted to bail for a while too, but not for any reason other than i feel like i’ve seen a lot of drama and bad takes and i don’t care to read that shit. i kind of just want to talk about films and videogames right now and live in a hole for a little bit. i need a mental health reset.

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kin wrote

If I had skills or worked with development/techy stuff I would probably be more nomad... I really want to move to another city now, probably I will be stuck here one more year tho, the pandemic is an anchor strapped in my neck.

I would love to live in Athens for example, learn the language, etc. Not being a full anarchohero bank robber is a downside, too old for a career adjustment..

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Passive_Nihlist wrote

If either of you are interested in nomadic living, squattheplanet.com may be of use to you.

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kin wrote

Thx

I will look into it, but maybe I'm too old to start this squatpunk life ,:'(

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Passive_Nihlist wrote

Some of the people I've met on the road are a bit older. If it is something you want its mainly just about finding what works for you. Especially there's a lot of different ways people travel.

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kin wrote

Yeah, maybe I'm undermining my own desires. Thanks again for the response

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Passive_Nihlist wrote

No problem if you have any questions or anything about that sort of lifestyle feel free to send me a message.

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kin wrote

It's the fear of nothing having enough time, fear of success, fear of taking chances..I had a strange remembrance today, was a memory interwined with dreams, my sibling and I was camping in the mountains together with some other friends. I wake up feeling I needed to escape the city, escape my life

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lettuceLeafer wrote

raddle feels tense and weird at the moment and i feel like a lot of people have bailed, but i don’t keep track of people’s profiles enough to know. i’ve felt like i wanted to bail for a while too, but not for any reason other than i feel like i’ve seen a lot of drama and bad takes and i don’t care to read that shit. i kind of just want to talk about films and videogames right now and live in a hole for a little bit. i need a mental health reset.

raddle just gets like that sometimes.

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halfway_prince wrote

Any thoughts on where people are jumping off to? Definitely missing the community from a few months ago...really helped through some rough times

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Ennui wrote

I go to work and school, come home exhausted and fall asleep. I wake up at midnight having realized my fatal error. I complete a few assignments; the words look fuzzy, and the screen is too bright. I stay up until my next class because if I go back to bed then I'll never make it to school. I am exhausted from staying up all night, I fall asleep when I get home, and the cycle repeats anew.

I'm so fucking hungry.

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NoPotatoes wrote

In high school I would procrastinate my homework until after midnight, then I'd have to wake up at 6:15 AM. I only packed a few snacks for the 8+ hrs I spent at school, then I would binge on pasta and ice cream when I got home while watching TV.

I don't understand how the hell I survived that. Pretty sure it took years off my life.

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NoPotatoes wrote

Hi y'all sorry for the bad news but starting after this week I will no longer be freely talking on Fridays. If you would like speech from me, you will have to pay me at least 100 grams of lentils. Thanks for understanding.

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gracklegrackle wrote

I just got the Contagion Press version of Acephale and it’s wild so far, I’m about halfway through. It’s pretty much: -Bataille and his friends trying to recover Nietzsche’s philosophy from the nazis in the 30s and general anti-fascist stuff -Dionysos worship and theory -The idea that we must behead ourselves metaphorically and also somewhat literally, Bataille wanted to be decapitated but nobody wanted to do it

Has anybody else read it? It’s pretty neat and I’d love to talk about it.

Also, does anybody have any ideas for gig work to make any money? I just moved and am super broke, I need to afford estrogen among other things. Street performing and busking isn’t really helping, and I’m waiting on my ID so I can get work doing bike courier shit here. I’m not really tryna do crime-related things right now and I can’t do research studies. Also the climate here is super ducking hot so all the dumpster food is pretty bad but the food pantries here have been helping.

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_caspar_ wrote

Ive only read The Sacred Conspiracy, but would like to read more Bataille. episode 8 of the quiver project discusses it, among other things. I think its worthwhile to check out.

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gracklegrackle wrote

I'll check out that episode, thanks! Did you like The Sacred Conspiracy? I'm now considering it getting it once I have money again. Contagion Press actually sent me Acephale for free, which is so so so nice.

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_caspar_ wrote (edited )

I liked it enough to make a pdf of it :)

Contagion is great.

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gracklegrackle wrote

Ohhh okay I see, yes this is at the beginning of Acephale! I thought there was an entirely different book. This is a cool pdf!

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_caspar_ wrote

thanks. I try to design short texts I find interesting when I can. I still need to take the time to format them all to print as imposed pdfs, so they are best for online reading... for now.

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gracklegrackle wrote

This is fucking amazing, for real. Wow, did you do art for all these? They're beautiful! Def gonna share this with friends. I've been slowly practicing hand-done bookbinding, maybe I'll practice with some of these!

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_caspar_ wrote

I designed them. the specific paintings/photos/etc I used for the covers are usually labeled on the title page.

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NoPotatoes wrote

Dog walking? You could put up flyers with your phone number. As people stop working for home they need someone to help take care of those untrained quarantine dogs...

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gracklegrackle wrote

I could try that! I worry though that nobody utilizes those fliers anymore because of how many dog walking apps there are these days...

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moonlune wrote

do you punks wanna start a film club?

yeah we can try :)

I'm watching amphibia (a cartoon) at the moment. It's nothing extraordinary but it's relaxing and wholesome. I'm halfway through season 2, season 3 starts in october.

I'm planning on watching owl house next.

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kin wrote (edited )

I was trying to recover my rise.up account, but after 13 years the chancea are that they erased any stuff I had there... I still can see my profile tho

Edit:yes I recovered it. Anyone is using we riseup? Is there anything interesting going on there? Damn nostalgia folks

Edit: false alarm, my access is only to the crabgrass thing and probably is a mistake, my account was really deactivated

"After a certain amount of time, inactive accounts are disabled. Eventually, if it is not reactivated, the account is deleted. (...)chances are it has been deleted. If that is the case, sadly there is nothing we can do for you."

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zoom_zip OP wrote

i tried to get an account but didn’t know anyone who could share an invite. i think i was hoping to use it for something… but i can’t remember what now so it probably doesn’t matter anymore

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kin wrote

It is an email server provided by activists to activists

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Quicksilver wrote

Finished watching all of Futurama and just, wow, it was a great ride! Such a great TV show!

Got back into playing Sid Meier's Alpha Centauri (co-done by Brian Reynolds). Always end up being drawn back to that game and always happy when I do. Highly recommend to anyone who has an interest on Civ games, as its take on it is so good.

Really excited for the new Dune film. It's coming out in October around here and I just can't wait!

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moonlune wrote

I'm also hyped AF for the new dune movie!

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Quicksilver wrote

I've just rewatched the lynch film and read the first four books, so I'm all set. Might give the miniseries a watch as well, as I've never seen em

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moonlune wrote

I've read the first and second over the summer (for the first time). I reallly liked the worldbuilding :)

I read somewhere that the movie will only cover the first half of the first book.

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Quicksilver wrote

From my understanding yeah, either it's gonna end there a tad bit before it. Sorta around the time he meets Chain I think is where they are gonna end it from my understanding.

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Quicksilver wrote

Oooh, Ill give them a look later! Heard about endless space 2 and have been meaning to check it out.

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zoom_zip OP wrote

i just bought civ vi on sale. i used to love the civ games, but now they feel kind of weird. it’s all just money and border wars and exploiting your citizens. i’m trying to play as a peaceful, cultural civ with open borders to all and my resources all going towards creating writing, artwork. other civs keep denouncing me for being “weak” because i’m not being expansionist or because i don’t have a huge army.

you have to play as “government” though.

idk i only played it for a few hours. maybe it’s more flexible and i just haven’t figured out how to do it yet.

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Quicksilver wrote (edited )

Yeah, most 4x, Civ style games really lean heavy on that unfortunately, especially since my fav games tend to lay in the genre (crusader kings being a big one). One of those things where I understand the problems of the genre and enjoy it anyway.

I would love to play a game that deconstructs the genre, while still maintaining the long term strategy of it. It probably exists somewhere and I just haven't found it yet.

TBF, Alpha Centauri does deconstruct it a bit. I don't want to say anything that spijls the game, but there are several winning conditions that don't involve just conquering the others, the story itself is really good, and there is a mechanic that can punish you quite heavily for polluting the planet (constructing mines and boreholes). And the ideologies of the original seven factions and some of the new factions are really interesting as well.

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Quicksilver wrote

Yeah there a a few mods out there, most of which just change the way the AI works (thinkers AI mod and Growth mod)I'm not actually sure about graphical mods. It's a game that I usually just play straight, but from my reading the mods are well done and still updated.

If you want it, it's on GOG for real cheap. You get the expansion alien crossfire with it as well (which has mixed views).

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existential1 wrote

Apparently I can no longer play video games in the evening too close to bed. It is ruining my ability to fall asleep. The younger version of me is laughing hysterically, somewhere.

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