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Hibiscus_Syrup OP wrote

Slowly starting to try to get active again after a huge lull while dealing with a bunch of bad emotional stuff. Probably have energy for only one sustained project this year so deciding what to do has been surprisingly troublesome.

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Hibiscus_Syrup OP wrote

First two weeks of this year I regularly took small doses of psilocybin. It helped massively. I went from being about 10% a person to about 50% on a good day.

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Kinshavo wrote

How you manage the microdosing? Im interested in give it a try

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Hibiscus_Syrup OP wrote

So, so far as I am aware, I wasn't microdosing, which seems to mean taking such small amounts that you don't even really feel the experience at the time. I did small doses probably corresponding to about a third of a gram, probably averaging just short of once a day over each week.

I was not systematic about it at all, just kinda eyeballed it.

And yeah, I took enough that I could feel the bodily discomfort that comes with mushrooms, and, in an earlier batch also some of the nice feelings, but there was no journey element or hallucinations. Basically taking enough just to feel like something's going on in my body, sometimes combined with a low dose of alprazolam.

Usually this would have to happen in my solitary downtime because I'd be taking enough that I won't really want to do complex things or engage people.

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Kinshavo wrote

Nice, thanks for the explanation.

Hope the things get even better for you ;)

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Hibiscus_Syrup OP wrote (edited )

u being an antifa super soldier

Well that's sweet of you, lol. I was still doing some substantial things even during the lull, but stuff that was more like reactive necessities rather than active plotting. I think most of you would be surprised how intense my year was! But I suspect it was for a lot of us here.

always worried that u were overworking yourself to a unhealthy degree.

Nothing around me is healthy, everything is dire and terrible in extreme ways. For many here, this pandemic is just more of the same hell, not special or notably different. Relative to most I'm very well off. I have a temporary contract job making less than US$1000 per month and it still puts me in the top 3 or 4% of earners in the country. Healthiness as an idea in the context of my relative position and circumstances is just vulgar selfishness (as opposed to egoist selfishness, which I think is a good thing).

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Hibiscus_Syrup OP wrote

Yeah just a huge proportion of people live in shacks or often-bad government-subsidised housing.

Even I can't afford a one bedroom apartment in cape town, lol.

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