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OdiousOutlaw wrote

I can empathize for the most part. I've dropped out of University, wound up in debt, and I've moved back home with my mom and siblings, they've got their problematic sides, but you have to do what you have to do and my old roommates were much, much worse.

sometimes feel like I should give up on anarchism like even abandoning here (so much of the stuff here just feels depressing to read for me) because the state and capitalism both just seem too pervasive to deny them

I wouldn't give up on anarchism; you came to be sympathetic to it for a reason, right? If that reason is still there, you can't just not be an anarchist. But this is a stressful time for you and you're not doing any good to yourself or anyone else if you come to raddle or watch the news and tear your hair out because the world is cruel and it sucks. Focus on bettering your situation, I understand the need for companionship from people who think similar to you, but a lot of raddle's content is pretty bleak and you might log off worse for wear.

some of the things I want to do aren't exactly revolutionary, like playing games for fun because I'm bored (after either studying or doing nothing), and I find that I'd be going through too much risk I can't reasonably handle if I tried doing anything more illegal than merely piracy or even including that at times.

Don't worry about not fighting for "The Cause" every second of everyday of your life. That's borderline martyrdom; which I doubt anyone condones. If all it took was one person to topple the state and capitalism, it would have been done thousands of times over. None of us are so important and special that we could literally end the world as we know it on our own. Anarchists are people, not idols. And as far as illegalism goes, it's an anarchist reaction to the demands of capitalism, not an actual framework for destroying it in any meaningful way; you don't need to steal from faceless corporations to be an anarchist. And occasional piracy is good enough; don't beat yourself up for not doing "praxis" for "anarchist cred", they're both pretty useless outside of gathering clout on this little section of internet.

As far as your short term plans go, I can't help. Like I said, I'm in a similar position myself and I'm as lost as you are.

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