I have what you would call atheist inclinations, but when I try to deal with the fact there is no god, that death is it, my mind doesn’t want to deal with it. The fact that there are innocent children who never had the chance to live, if there is no afterlife, which to me means they’ll never experience happiness or love or any other wonderful emotion, is just heartbreaking and unacceptable to me. My mind looks over the abyss and decides to be pseudo religious because at least some religions offer second chances and redemptions.
Sorry if I seem like I’m attacking atheism. I’m not very good at expressing myself. I truly want to be an atheist.