Submitted by jus74hu3m4n in addiction
So I've struggled with both alcohol and weed abuse for the last decade.
Most I've been able to go without both is a yea max r,but afterwards, there's no motivation to continue.
I know that the alcohol is worse for me, it's bcaused me problems and I know avoiding it would be best, but I've been using more frequently since my dad died from cancer complications last year. I know that I don't want to be a drunkard, but being isolated, introverted and none to greagrious, I fear fallong back into patterns of daily abuse
I don't think it helps that I now have to leave my house for enslavment tha to promised hirer pay, but due to HR issues, I'm mow losong more.money than I make.
Instead of going home, I spent three hours at some dive insteading of heading home and studying.
I know this is my reaction to alienation and I don't want to fallback into abusive habits, but I don't really ahve any will to be sober since my dad died.
I know I'm drinking as a substitute for interpersonal conatct since I'm not of a mindset to meet starngers, don't nreally engage in cretive hobbies anymore and ge to be motivated by my awareness of the world.
I know what habist I'd replace with drinking,but it's difficult to do alone and compunded by the fact that I don't reachout to peopel, even though I knownit would help me.
Long atory shirt, how's ya'llnstay sober without a supoort network?
Sorry about rant, spelling errors and grammar
NOISEBOB wrote
I quit drinking because i always ended up fucked up (breaking bones, getting arrested and general depression), one day I just had enough of that shit. Wasn't easy, but it I felt it was a choice between life or death, literally..
I started smoking a lot more weed for some time, but that I got under control as I realised I was missing out on life (seeing friends travel and doing fun stuff)....
I still smoke weed from time to time, tho....
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