one of my partners wants to take a break because they feel inadequate to our third partner in our triad relationship. This is because i have a dick, and neither of them do, so the first partner believes our metamour doesn't value their relationship as much as her relationship with me.
they also gaslit me for like a week while saying indirectly hurtful things about various subjects, and when I would ask what was underlying this behavior they lied and said it had nothing to do with me. then, they spring all their feelings on me while breaking off our relationship in one fell swoop. When i ask if they would consider talking with both me and their other partner about this when they collected their emotions, so we can work it out together, they refused to even consider and revisit the subject at a later time.
i'm devastated obviously, but it gets worse. i live with this partner, so it's a problem for me in a very material sense. our metamour also isn't in a great housing situation, living across from their ex who is physically abusive.
the transphobia and internalized homophobia of my partner-on-a-break is really hurtful and comes a bit out of left field. However, they are ex-trans, and have said that they feel they identified as trans out of internalized misogyny, so perhaps I should have seen it coming. What is super ridiculous, however, is that both me and our metamour love my partner-on-a-break. especially I, I've really committed to our relationship. I only consented to the triad on the understanding that my partner-on-a-break would communicate with me, and I with them. So to have them let these emotions fester, refuse to talk about it, and then just ghost both of us ....all because of this false impression that they are not valued because of my body, which i fucking hate.... and then refuse to even tell our metamour, out of this passive aggressive desire to prove they are "right" that our metamour doesn't care about them....
This person harbors serious transphobia, has emotionally manipulated and abused me, and is engaging in romantic self-destruction which frankly hurts us too. I'm really disappointed in their lack of willingness to communicate, work through issues, or let go of their violent conception of me as a man. I'm heartbroken AF, and feel like a dumbass for opening up to someone who doesn't even see me as the girl I really am. When push comes to shove, i will always be that male interloper in a women's space. FML