Submitted by qgos in Queer

At some point in the near future, I will walk into the woods. I will carry no equipment, no phone, no water, no wallet, and no jacket. I will simply walk, and keep walking until it is impossible to do so. For the days that I am there, I will sleep on the ground, on the leaves and moss. I will not consume anything. I want to leave my world, I want to set off into the woods and die there. It seems that the most peaceful way to die would be to starve, surrounded by the beauty of nature. It would probably take about a week, but soon, without water or food, I will die. I will disappear. I have failed to justify my existence, I have no will to speak of. I see nothing but disaster and disappointment in my future, and my past is covered in shame. Please hope that my journey into the woods proceeds soon. There’s nothing more to say.

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bloodrose wrote

I have failed to justify my existence

You don't have to. You are you and that's enough. You don't have to be productive or special or whatever-else capitalism has shoved into your brain. Just existing is an amazing feat! You get to experience conciousness. You get to feel sun on your face or hear the sound of a fly's wings buzzing. You get to be happy or sad or annoyed or angry. You don't have to do anything to be allowed to exist. Just existing is the point. There is no other point.

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Kinshavo wrote

I hope the woods cure your wounds instead of let you vanish.

Everyone deserves a new future now

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aaaaargZombies wrote

I see nothing but disaster and disappointment in my future, and my past is covered in shame.

People are notoriously bad at predicting the future. All we can really say is that things will change. I'm sure it's no coincidence you posted this to f/queer, shame is a weapon used against us. There's a reason that we call the celebration of queer existence pride.

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Tequila_Wolf wrote

Here's wishing it's all the things you want it to be.

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rot wrote

Before you go be sure to explore all your options, it'd be a shame if there was something that could have been done to make life better for you

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