This past week I was for whatever reason thinking about gender and how it is or isn't a solid easily defined thing. At least for me gender was something assigned a label I never had to think about because it never seemed important, never caused any issues, never had any problems with masculinity...
I've always been a man cause its easy and it's what i was told i was. now im wondering if i should reject that label or if that somehow invalidates "real" enbies who are at odds with their gender v.s. me, a guy who's fine being "male" but likes the idea of using neutral pronouns and doesnt give a shit what gender he's/they're labeled as.
basically gender binary is fake and i have no attachment to mine. should i just ditch it? how do you know you're nonbinary? what does it mean to come out as nb?
Ennui wrote
Part of me rejects any and all gender and another part of me feels the contrast between wanting to be feminine, sexual, and daring and masculine, solitary, and intellectual. But then I think on my limitations as someone who is not a woman but also not manly in any sense, and realize that, were I a traditional male or female figure, my conception of my masculine and feminine sides would be drastically different. I can’t call myself either binary gender given that I really don’t know what they are, having not experienced them. Further, the fact that I am biologically a male but don’t know what it means to be male tells me that it’s all socially dogmatic nonsense.