Submitted by reiorhgjoie213 in MentalWellbeing
I want to live somewhere where I can heal and be around someone who empathizes with me and who wont have me institutionalized. I have trauma from abuse by my biological family.
I have trauma from being abused, in the past I've been put in solitary as a child, nearly raped, force drugged
I want to find someone to live with who wont hurt me, but I just keep failing, I'm scared I'm going to be institutionalized again and that my life will be ruined.
The current people I'm with are more understanding and seem like they wouldnt report me if I was suicidal, but I'm scared at how they'd react if I ever have a breakdown.
I don't want the rest of my life to be continuously at risk of being institutionally abused, I want to find somewhere to go where I can heal and finally feel like a human being, even if I have to save money and move to another country, anywhere, I just want out of this mess that I've been put into.
I just want to fully transition (i'm mtf trans) and have a partner and friends and feel like a human being, I don't want to be perpetually attached to people who abuse me, and to a system that abuses me, I want to break free of this hell.
Pop wrote
sounds like a plan
depending on what country you live in though you might have more luck finding similar people there in a better part of the country
That's good
I'm also terrified of being institutionalised, especially when I'm doing bad
Lately things have been ok for me though, so I'll recommend you bide your time, keep your eyes out for opportunities, and make the most of them when they are around
(while alway trying to be as good as you can for others, and never reproduce the toxicity of this world)
a couple solid friends will make all the difference
good luck <3