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this_one wrote (edited )

Watching this reminded me a lot of the first few-several months after realising I was trans. After realising that when I imagine myself as women in porn rather than as men in porn, I enjoy it a lot more; I started watching a lot more porn, and it led pretty directly to some pretty severely unhealthy views of myself. I almost want to compare it to an abusive relationship without a clear abuser (except maybe myself?? idk), but I haven't really experienced abuse, so I dunno if that'd be an apt comparison or a rather insensitive one. Maybe a kind of self harm is a better way of putting it.

I've manged to dismantle a lot of the thought processes I built up over that period, so I'm doing a lot better now, don't worry :P <3

I think being reminded of that time in my past has diminished, a little, my distaste of a particular breed of early-on trans-fem folks who (among other things I don't like) treat transness as inherently sexual. Obviously that's still really shitty, and they should please stop doing it, but I guess I can't really blame them. idk

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ziq wrote (edited )

I think abuse porn is shitty and the solution is probably feminist porn that values women instead of treating them like disposable things.

The only way the abuse porn would stop is if the sex workers themselves collectively agreed to refuse to participate in it and took control of the narrative themselves.

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Xylanthius OP wrote

I never realized that I was conditioned and grew up in a pornified culture.

Learning this makes me a little sick and victimized.

How do you feel?

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