Submitted by asterism in AsterismOvershares

I think maybe I have overinvested myself in people here. I dont know. I just wanted a place to vent because I had no one to vent to. amd then so many people were so supportive and It really surprised me and it really helped me and I really needed the help.

And shit went down and I dont want to rehash it, because my view is distorted but also because I am the only one left involved so whats the point.

and thats what sucks because three of my biggest supports were styx, bloodrose, and LL. and they all left. and I feel almost selfish for wanting them here again. They all did so much good for me. I do still have contact with LL so thats something. I reached out to bloodrose but I think that was wrong of me. but its done now, I guess we will see what comes of that.

I dont know, it just sucks. and I dont know if I feel comfortable posting here anymore. and it sucks because it was my only safe space and I am like super fucked up about it right now because I have a lot I need to talk about but no where to go with it.

I think I need to take a hiatus. I dont think I can stay away long tbh but I need some time. Fuck I hate this.

Anyway if anyone wants to reachout to me elsewhere I would like that. I am at under the same name. I am on matrix but its a different name I dont know if I want to share that in a post though. I will probably lurk here a little today and then disconnect for awhile.



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Fool wrote

Are you back yet?


asterism OP wrote



Fool wrote (edited )

You're them. You're them completely. You stole... my foot?


asterism OP wrote

It is my preffered unit for measuring distance


Fool wrote

1 fool foot = 10 imperial inches

8 feet = 1 spider

1000 spiders = 1 terror


asterism OP wrote

Oh shit. I was going to do that thing next Sunday. are people still interested in that?

I dont know if I still am or not I will need to decide.


subrosa wrote

Nothing against you, but I'm leaning no on next Sunday. As you mentioned, it's easy to get a bit too invested in each others lives, which comes with all sorts of dynamics that online are extra difficult to hold in balance. A hiatus sounds like a good idea, if only to let the mind unwind and let go for a bit. But also don't take your announcement as a promise; if you show up tomorrow morning I won't hold it against you.

Sorry the whole situation leaves you a little, uh, fucked up. I'm inclined to say, it's not that big of a deal, and there were/are all sorts of factors at play; feel better. I hope that's not too measured a response to be meaningless.


veuzi wrote

I'm still down for the sunday chat but you do what you gotta do


lentils wrote

i’m still up for it if you are but obv if you’re not that’s totally understandable, so no pressure.


Bezotcovschina wrote

your decision. If positive, I would like to join, but no pressure, you can do it at any other time if you want