I have to tell the truth. I have been lying A LOT. In part because I don't trust my wife with the truth and in part because I want to avoid what is going to be a very painful conversation.
But the first step through this is to have that conversation. At the very least she needs to know she has irreprably shattered my trust. There is litterally nothing she can do to repair it.
I don't know. I think I am going to edit/rework that one post probably significantly rework it and read it to her. I might post the new version here first just so I can have a second pair of eyes on it.
I have put off this conversation long enough I think I am going to try to have it this weekend sometime.
My life's going to fucking implode.